Tuesday, January 31, 2006
tired of my life
sick of this world
depressed with everything
confused with all my thoughts
angry with myself
jing yong! you better dun be so flirt okae... her mother dun allow u 2 she still risk everything n msg u. dun hurt her lar... better go reply her lar!!!!!!@
n jun yuan u better dun spend all ur money makin overseas calls okae
n ck. thanks for always listenin to my craps...
hmmm... been almost one mth since i saw my bros in sch. though i din see them but i mish them alots. well... they din changed much.. we are still the same... joking n laughin anywhere.. hahz. still rmb the stupid things we always did in class... totally memorable. wahahaz.
n. i i promise myself to stay happy. i'll leave everything aside. dun wish to be in love again unless i'll forgootteen everything. yeaps.
i`ve made a wish ;
6:37 PM
first thing first. my tagboard got prob. so pls dun tag. sorry .
you cant blame me for being stubborn
cos we had too much of memories, both good n bad
you cant blame me for not letting go
cos we went thru all things, both thick n thin
dun tell me theres sumone better out there
cos there'll nv be two identical person
dun tell me to forget everything
cos even i can i will cherish everything
thanks for carin. even though as jus a fren
maybe u are right.
what i yearn is sumthing i'll nvr get
but i still yearn for it.
call me stubborn. call me crazy call me insane
call me anything.
i still do.
~imcarzyiminsaneimmadimjuscrazi
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8:14 AM
omg. i realli cant take it anymore.... i appear to have forgotten. i appear to have given up. i appear to have a new life. i appear to be happy. but do i realli feel this way ? ohh yes i have taken the pics n everything out of my wallet n left it in the box. but why do i kip takin them out and stare at them. why do i still visit ur blog? why do i still view ur profile? n ohh yes. i've made new frens. but then i realli dun wanna to acept her jus to replace sumone's that can nv be replaced in my heart... i m realli confused. i cant deny. i realli dun wanna hurt anyone anymore... i make a good fren but i dun think i make a good boyfren ... so i realli dun wanna to use u as a replacement. aiya. i dun know what i m tokin also. Whateva! jing yong. if u see this i jus wanna give u a piece of advice. she loves u. dun give up on her. she needs u. trust me. n jun yuan... i think she will come back de lar dun worry lar.. n derek.. hope this time u patch le must stay happy always okae... n or ki... i m sure u willl find ur happinesss de lar.. i realli dun wanan fall in love agin.. cos i m still missing sumone... argh. wateva.!
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9:36 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
i hate people who show me their attitude face
i hate people who throw their tanturms on me
i hate to be reprimanded for sumthing i m not at fault
dun make me turn into a racist pls.
bloody hell... cny eve i happily got to work expectin a happy renuion dinner n a bloody customer spoilt my day. hey! ur festive season is over n u need not spoil other's mood yea ? i wonder whats wrong with him too. first... he got three pairs of shoes to try for his daughter. as it was the last pair, he aske dme for a discount n i gave him 5% more. he agreed to buy n i got everything ready. even cut off the tag from the shoe. and than the bastard wants another shoe. oh fine i got him another shoe. when he got the shoe n removed the stuffins inside, he jus threw the paper on the ground in my face with an attitude face. argh. this wasnt the end . as it was a NEW pair. he claimed it was not. n then he began to make things difficult for me n n colleague. cant take it anymore... i jus told him that was the last pair "sorry" theres nothing we can do ... is that very rude? n he actually told my manger we were rude! WTf! bloody guy. he jus threw sumthing in our direction (a pant he wanted to buy) n left the shop. i tell u ... u better dun let me see u workin anywher... i'll make things diff for u... trust me. dun try me. u made me hate u totally. argh...
nvm. today festive seaon lets jus throw all the unhappy things away. yeaps. dun worry be happy! =D yeap. happy.
i`ve made a wish ;
11:41 PM
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
ta men shuo xin tong zhe liang ge zi ye bu zi shi yi ge bi yu
ke shi dang wo ting jian na yi xie hua
hen hen di cha chuan le wo de xin
er dang wo de lei shui liu xia shi
wo cai fa xian wo de xin tu ran jue de heng tong
xin tong bu zhi shi yi ge bi yu
ta cheng wei le yi zhong gan jue
ye xu yi qie jiu shi ming zhong zhu ding
ye xu dang wo men bi xu xie shang jie ju shi
wo bi xu xhi qu ni
ye xu ai jiu xiang shi ge pao mo
xiao shi le jiu yong yuan bu jian le
ye xu ai jiu xiang bo li
sui le jiu wu fa zai ping cheng yi pian
ye xu mang mang de hai yang
dou shi lei shui zhu cheng de
ye xu yong yuan de lu cheng
ye bu zhi si she me duan zhang
ye xu tian kong de xing xing
bu shi mei ge ren dui ai de xi wang
er shi dui ai de jue wang
ye xu yi qie dou shi ye xu
wo de xin zhen de ting zhu le.
i`ve made a wish ;
8:45 AM
WADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVAWADEVA....i realli had enuf of my life le.... fark lar....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
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7:37 AM
WHAT THE HELL.... i have lost my voice for so so so many days... cant even work properly when i speak to the customers... Argh! damn throat... hmmm.... thses few days is kinda busy n busy and sumone even tried to steal in our shop. omg is was like total chaos. well.. hasnt seen my frens for quite a long time... miss ya alot guys.. wonder how u all are too... wonder hows the sch life yea. hope u guys are doing well... well... going to rest le.. hope my voice comes back soon.......
*no matter if it is jus an accidental click or u happen to be at this page. i jus wanna say. i miss u alot. and i realli do. yes . euu .
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8:04 AM
Wheee.... i jus did my new year shopping...
1 new world orer pants - $52
1 freshbox tee - $22.90
1 77th street jacket - $50
1 nike tee - $36
1 puma tee - $29
1 77th strt tee -$28
new puma sneakers -$89
new hair dye -$10
total expenditure -$ 316.90
wahahahah.. im lanning to have a complete change.
but eeyrthing wills till be the same
i`ve made a wish ;
4:14 PM
WOW! in short. i feel like i m better off dead. i read too much into things.. i think too much.. yea i know my existence wun not even affect u.. sumtimes u relli make me wonder... i know i've hurt u far too much but why dun u let us have a chance again ? why must u deny a chance in sumting in which u do not even know what will happen ? u shld know how i feel n how i think but pls dun choose not to... i reallihope to bw with u again. i reali do.
i`ve made a wish ;
5:26 PM
suddenly i see images of me fallin down from a very very very great height... and when i opend my eyes i was in pain... and then i relaised i had a cramp on my leg. so scary. hmm...ytd talked to a colleague of mine.. and got lots of advices of whether i shld go for jc or poly... welll results are coming out in a few weeks time... wonder how i wiilll fare.. haiz... still remembered how we once to study together n how we did well for the chinese o's. i still rmb.
i used to hold ur hands everytime we were out
i used to be the one who see ur silly smile
i used to be the one who made u cry
i used to be the one who always hear ur voice
i used to be the one who loves u more than anyone
and i m still the one.
recently all of me frens also dun knw what happn to them... some went jc some went mi... like totally lost contact with them.. only i the idiot the only one workin.. hmm... to derek. all the best for ur jc life and hope u make a decision soon yea.. for jing yong hope u n her n her parents wun have so much conflicts yea. to jun yuan... dun give up ur hopes else nothing will come true. haha u all wun see this cos iu all dun even know i have the blog la. anyway jus wanna let u all know that thanks yea... os u all are my true frens. =D all the best in ur results. and to you. hope u are feeling better and all the best too. hmmm.
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8:24 PM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
hmmm well.. i didnt blog for so long... hmm... so fast time has past... but i dun see any change. hmm... sum how so many unhappy things happen jus within one day. at home... why couldnt my parents jus uds me... why do they have to make things worst for me ? at work... some bloody customer shouted at me... argh... dun know lar.. feel so sick of my life... suddenly i begin to wonder if theres eralli a thing called fate. cos i realised the night when i watched fireworks at esplande .. she was there... even though we did not see each other... who knows we have alady walked past each other without knowing it. hmmm yea summore.. viewed her blog that day and the very nex day i went to work.. my colleagues was playing his cd... same song as her blog? well.. maybe its was jus concidence.. but who knows. yea we may nv know whats gonna happen the very next second. if u happen to see this i realli jus hope that u wun give up yea... i know u are under lots of stress lots of problems.. n simply askin u smile wun help... yeap i rmb u tellin me those weir dreams of yours... hmm go to slp with a peaceful mind yea... meanwhile hope u realli take care... yeap... i'll always be here. always the same. hmm yeap.
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5:14 PM
