i think theres someting realli wrong with me
suddenly so sad the next momment i can be happy.
gosh. must be the chocos.
arhhh sis says ice age 2 nice.
i wanna watch!
kekez aiya gotta work today.
sianz half.
a choco taste best
with a lil bit of bitter in the first place
cos sweetness right from the start will turn one off
a lil bit of bitter
will give u the perfect sweetness
-whahaha i m so HIGH
i`ve made a wish ;
5:51 PM
i m jus very very sad right now.
chocs makes one happy ?
LIes
today painted a very beautiful picture
its was framed up nicely.
but jus as i was hangin it up
it feel n boke into pieces
pieces of broken hopes
stabbin me
i m in pain
real pain
i m hurtin
it realli hurts
someone tell me what to do ?
F
*
*
K
i`ve made a wish ;
9:29 AM
argh. damn.
my mood toally ruined
notonly becos of my frenn
becos of me too
whateva!
i m kinda disappointed
arghz
damn.
EVERYZTHINGS RAININ ON ME
ALL OF A SUDDEn
TOOK EVRYTHING FROM Me
fine.
feel as though im better off dead
wishful thinkin
ArgH
i wann curse
i wanna swear
ARZGH~~~~~~~~~~
evrything was jus an illusion.?
say it isnt so
i`ve made a wish ;
9:04 AM
wahahahs. in good mood.
back from k box and chocs buffet
though on tv i so attracted but ate only a lil there
hahaz i realli enjoyed the day
really.
been a long time since i sang my heart out
sang out what i realli realli feel.
wow. can say u sang real well huh.
yea rmbered i was holdin on to the mike
almost the whole k session
not forgettin u too
haha.
this is the first time i uds what i means by puttin feelings into a song
cos i rellly reallly sang with my heart
almost cried.
anyway ck. i cheer up.
i know how u feel. i do.
basically jus sang n sang n sang
sang until the waiter came in to remind us that our session ended.
hahaz
then we made our way to fulerton
for my dear chochs.
but only ate a lil there
though the food was mouth waterin
but tired of it. so sweet
alot to say. but the chocs makin me slpy...
haiz. tml still had to work.
i really had a great time today.
esp at k box.
the songs were jus like words i wan u to know.
anyway. my heart was skiipppin.
-becauseofyou-
-shan hu hai
i`ve made a wish ;
7:40 AM
wahhh!!!! 3am liao!!!!
i m not slpy!
shit.
jus wanna blog sumthing from my heart
"I MISS YOU"
i`ve made a wish ;
11:05 AM
imfeelngjustsodown
but i dun have any idea.
there seemed to be sumthing bottlin in me
makin me feel so unbearable.
wished i can jus shout out loud.
let everything out.
i need a listenin ear badly.
haiz.
came across hooligan's blog
found out that ppe we despise
can even hav a better life than us.
much more wonderful than us.
i wonder realli whats wrong with me
i feeelll sooooo down.
whatever.
i`ve made a wish ;
8:13 AM
well tody woke up at 7.
went for mahjong game with luo n manager
gussed what
i won 2.80 sitting there for like 8+ hours?
haha. its okae.
then went with wei luo walked around tamp
yeap. driving outrun realli cools me down
found out actually wei luo was wooing a girl
go for it! haha
argh F la.
i did nth wrong la.
stop throwin ur temper on me.
it was jus dinner okae?
wadeva
in the past i was too weak
wheneva theres a prob n u tried to hold on to mie
we'll fall together.
the past. not now.
SECURITY.
i`ve made a wish ;
3:46 AM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
hmmmm... gonna blog another time
well today saw alot of farnie thigns
actually saw a parent that tied his son n him together with sumthing
n walked around
kinda worried that his son was running away huh.
lolz
then dun know which parent left his baby in the pram
n parked it outside the door to the store room
i opened the door n there was a baby smilin at me
haha cute!
ok. gonna rest for now.
nights
takkee caarree
chill!
i`ve made a wish ;
8:19 AM
wahahaha! today met a very good customer
wrte me a feedback form..
wahahahs thankx alot.
wah today went for haircut.
turtle. i have to spike my hair again
which i dint realli wan
all thanks to the barber
hmm today got my pay slip!
found out it was so lil
but i still bought a tee!
=D
actuallly found out tht my cooleague propsed to her gf
but guessed she aint ready yet
he told me sumthing so meaningful again
"when love fails,"
" it might not be that u have not met the right one"
"it might be that u met the right one at the wrong time "
sounds kinda true.
blog again later perhars.
i`ve made a wish ;
7:09 AM
yawns.
woke up so early cos my mind kip tellin me to come online
yea. goonnna work later
work work work n more work...
yea suddenly was told jy was tranferred to PP
gosh. what the hell...
suddenly realised neglected yuan alot
or did he do the same too ?
i have no idea.
all i know is
i m tryin to finish some thing up
yet my schdule is so tight
hmm dun know..
last night was talkin talkin until so hyper
then suddenly perahrps tired le
no more energy
yea still rmb that day tokin to colleague
he told me he was so touched that his gf write letters to him yet he cant write them
i could see his eyes getting red
he must have meant alot to him
he told me sumthing. which i found realli meaningful
"before u try, don't gve up"
"cos it'll be a lifetime regret in the future"
thanks man
anyway hope u n ur gf get marrried soon.!
believe urself
believe me
believe in us
i`ve made a wish ;
4:49 PM
gosh. misunderstandings.
chill people.
i din state clearly in my blog
sorry yea. everyone
maybe it was me who was too sensitive over what pple say
nv gonna care
unless spoken from the mouth of the person i care
no matter still have to explain la
lol.
ck was askin if i was msgin u
n he saed he was jus askin
i tot he knew sumthing n so i jus asked him la
n then he told me what duno nv repeat thing la
thats why i kip say i realii hope ites never never true
nvm nvm.
anyway that doesnt mean i dun have a chane
i m jus silly.
crazy me.
once i was a star.
i fell as a falling star
now though i m still one
i m no longer the star that shines brightly
no longer hurt anyone glaringly
the only star the belong to u. n tts only me.
i`ve made a wish ;
6:28 AM
gosh. misunderstandings.
chill people.
i din state clearly in my blog
sorry yea. everyone
maybe it was me who was too sensitive over what pple say
nv gonna care
unless spoken from the mouth of the person i care
no matter still have to explain la
lol.
ck was askin if i was msgin u
n he saed he was jus askin
i tot he knew sumthing n so i jus asked him la
n then he told me what duno nv repeat thing la
thats why i kip say i realii hope ites never never true
nvm nvm.
anyway that doesnt mean i dun have a chane
i m jus silly.
crazy me.
once i was a star.
i fell as a falling star
now though i m still one
i m no longer the star that shines brightly
no longer hurt anyone glaringly
the only star the belong to u. n tts only me.
i`ve made a wish ;
6:28 AM
phew. mum wlaked past my room and asked me what was i writint in the middle of the night'
think i better stop for today
im gonna hve it donw soon.
tml gonna be workin at head ofice for a day
haiz. still have to wake up so erly.
reli need some rest
i hope what i've i heard aint true
take ur time.
i`ve made a wish ;
9:56 AM
welll... today woke up n went to work.
yeap. during my break i was actually scrblling sumhing down
when suddenly i tot i heard my name
at fers i tot it was the customer
but who knows. i decided to go out n take a look
i saw u. n him
was shocked. but delighted
then went to walk around pp.
relli have to say tis
i forgot which shop it is
but i think it really needs a renovation
fancy puttin a mirror out of nowhere
when i saw, i still tot i saw my colleague
but when i saw my face i nearly jumped out of my skin
so embaraassin but lucky no one see
first time i gave myself a fright by lookin at a mirror
wahahahz.
while walkin around pp.
i reall feel my heart beatin faster faster
yeap . din realli wish to go back work then
no choice
i pushed the door open
i saw u
how i wished what i've heard from others
was never never true
how i wish i could.
FARk
i`ve made a wish ;
8:05 AM
yeeapp! a whole new look!
wish upon a star!
haha firstly must thank Qian for helpin me
else my blog will be like s*it
yea gonna turn in soon
nittes
YOU, YES, YOu
euu
i`ve made a wish ;
10:18 AM
wahhh1!! last night couldnt finish what i doing
went to slp at 3am
hmm hey sorrywor.
ssuddenly so many things happen
n u are unwell then
we still talk abt those things
haha ... but its kinda farnie anyway
i realli jus meant to console u
but we actually talked abt it
hahaha....
today my mum woke me up
gOSH it was ten!
i m gonna work at 11~
damn! i jus grab a piece of food n ran out
i found out i was too early.
hahahz.
anyway..
i carried my black eyed rings to work
was slpin rather than workin
lolz.
this was the fers time
that we actaully toked abt tis
peacefully.
anyway..
i m tired, wanna slp!
nights.
there can be miracles when u belive
i`ve made a wish ;
6:47 AM
welll... hope that at least u're feeling better
ck sorry yea. din mean to ignore u.
i jus wanna say
i mean evrything
gota go... nights
the stars be here. always
i`ve made a wish ;
11:03 AM
today arh...
was workin
but the whole day dun feel rigt
i was jus starin into space
buryin myself in my tots
until customer tap n shoulder say excuse me
so pai seh seh... thrw face
hmmm. nthing much happend also la.
my colleague was guessin hats wrong with me
haha
sort of gotten it right
anyway. dun think i m slpin tonight
gotta some things which i wanna complete tonight
i hope i can.
i m realli sincere.
so i'll proof it by completin it
n yar.
chaw mengn sally came to visit me
sory guys dun realli have time to tok to u all
haha
wah liaoz.
manager askin me to mahjong again
wasting my money again
haha
dare not play liao
once bitten twice shy
hmm yea.
the word fear again
take care yea
see tt u r sufferin from ur sicknss
i still
realli.
i`ve made a wish ;
8:08 AM
welll. today went out early in the morning
lost near 20 bucks
then aft that went to clebrate luo's bday
tried to put on a smile
gave him a surprise n sang him a song
with a cake at the bus stop
ate the thai buffet
threw money at arcade
got three winni e pooh n a genie
then went home
heard from ck that ur eyes are swollen
do take care yea
dn wish to see u like this
n oh yar jac has a performance tml
cant make it guys
sorry. jia you
once biten twice shy
thatsthe reason why memories can turn into tears
its becos we realli treasure those moments
we really hope to be in there once again
but yet.
we're stopped by a barrier: fear
for the past half year.
i've tried to look away
but in fact i m jus avoidin
for the past six months
i've tried to make sesne into everyting
i've tried to accpet evrything as it is
but i still can't
i know very well hat my heart wants
even though its sumthing i'll nv get
at least i dun wanna lose any hopes
mybe thats what kept me going on
for so long.
if only theres a device that can depict how i feel
cos i m not good at words
to love n to be love
thats the greatest thing that happned to me
how much i yearn for it
how much i cherish it
hw much i care for it.
how mch we want sumthing
yet how much we fear
thats the contraidction in life
but no matter what.
i've learnt my lesson
if i had the chance again
i'll cherish it
hmmm.
to wl : happy BItrthday~ sorry. no presents, jus a surprise n n bdday cake
to royston: you better dun gamble ur life away...
to hw : hope ur apllication succed
to u :cheer up.
i really really do
i`ve made a wish ;
8:09 AM
i tried to close my eyes
but they still flow back into my mind
i tried to stuff my ears
but the songs made things worse
i tried not to look into ur eyes
i tried to avoid
i realli did not want things to be so awkward
did not want things to be like that
i tot thattoday wil be a normal outing
but the memories reali came back
i tried to ignore
bt i think u feel the same way.
nevertheles they made u feel worst.
indeed those were beautiful memories
bt i dun wish u to cry
i dun wish to cry.
but whenever they came back into my mind
i still think of everything
no matter what
i jus dun wan u to tear
cos i've made u tear too much
far too much
ihate myself.
i`ve made a wish ;
7:34 AM
hmmm. have so much to say
so much so much yet nothing comes out
went to pp with qian n ck n mabel n w
then went to chinatown'
ck treat pizza
dint eat much though
gotta treat him one of these days
hmmm.
well.
aft that went to tamp. they bought their own stuffs
and then we went home
hmmm yeap. thats abt tt.
yea. no matterhow dark
the stars wll always shine'
but they'll only light up the sky
but not my very own world.
the more i dun wanna have any thoughts
the more i actually think
jus that the knot's there.
someone help me pls.
-dead-
well. tml gonna have mahjong session with my manager n colleagues.
hope win some money.
thats all.
its still there.
Still.
my mind was totally in a daze.
totally occuied with thoughts n feelings
hmmm...
nvm.
i dun know
i m lost
i`ve made a wish ;
6:42 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
hmm last night went to victoria oncert hall
with my long------ lost fren
haha
yea though felt abit extra but well..
qite enjoy myself
must apologise to her wor
i seem so anti social
then bcos i gastirc what
hmmm n mmade her go home alone.
so bad
well.
ytd met up with bro in the aftnoon
long time no see
but guessed hes still the same.
went for a "drink" at mac.
then went home
hmmm...
yeaps. thats abt it.
to p.l. - realli sorry arhhh...
i`ve made a wish ;
6:53 PM
为什么人类就是这个样子
当拥有一样东西时
总是不会珍惜
每当在失去之后
才会后悔，才会觉悟
可是为何人们觉悟时
上天却不再给他们、一个机会
就算是犯下了滔天大罪
也不应该就这样夺走他们的机会
为何人类受到了打击后
受到了伤害后
就一口咬定事情会再重演
就算是从中学到了教训
可是这么做实在=不公平
到底一切是什么回事
为什么我又会说出这一番话
我也不知道
i`ve made a wish ;
10:04 PM
hmm nth much
quarreled with mum
hmmm. well not much happened.
bought a cnverse ee. puma belt.
hmmm. bored.
daed maerd ym tsol i
i`ve made a wish ;
8:37 AM
NABEI **
FARKED UP
'm jus damn pissed
ARGh
i`ve made a wish ;
7:09 AM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
wahahahz.not an insut okae...
a praise hor... haha laugh all u want lor.
haha'darn. can only tag my blog on others com yet i cant tag at home
bloody helll..
wahahahz.
think i m dying le
the dic says he need to verify my xray for the lungs
hasnt called me yet
been so many days
jun yuan went with me he got his report n mine was retained
wah.. die le lar..
shit manz.
bought a puma water bottle.
wahahahz
cool.
anyway .
yuan... lost ur wallet le
better be careful next time
dun lose it again =x
waahahz
i`ve made a wish ;
8:12 AM
haha i wanna tan.!!!
haha dun care the pain
i wanan grow black..!!
haha anyway do take care of your swollen skin...lobster..
LOL
wahahahz.
gonna dye my hair copper red.
lolz
muhahaha.
anyway
off tml
going for checkup for poly enroollment
wahahahz.
thats all abt it... gtg
i`ve made a wish ;
8:50 AM
firstly i must thank that sentosa sun yea
nvr tot the sun could do sumone a favour
hahaz
not bad arhh... nv count me in for the tan
lolz
anyway.
not much happened exxcept ork n work n work
then went to bedok inter with jy n wl
ate a HUGE watermelon deset there
people walkin past us was like "WOW"
so pai seh'
nyway did enjoy it.
hahaz
i`ve made a wish ;
5:33 PM
i've had alaready said sorry
but there nothing i can do
if you don't accept it
no matter what
i'll regard u as a ren
i promise
well.
to the other person
if i have offendded u
ive already apologise
u needn't act as if u dun know me when i msg u
u needn't ask me who am i when u recive my msg
if i gave u false hope in the beginning
then its my fault.
evyerhitngs my fault
whatever yea...
wahahah derek... TURTLe.
someone actually say i look like edison
i thinkk they really cock eyed.
hahaz
then they came to take my number.
wah piang. so pai seh
my manager and seniors was luffin at me.
hahaz.
welll. not much happened..
only day of.f
went to isetan prvate sales
then walked arond
spnt in arcade
then went to mahjong
lost 15$.
Gosh.
i promise i'll win em bcak.
wahahahz
i`ve made a wish ;
7:08 PM
well. guessed whatever i say wouldnt be of any use
can say i unied everything bahz.
maybes thats the prob
i dun know how to communicate with people.
whatever it is
i still regard u as a fren
no matter u belive or not
the past is all gone
and only thing i can take with me
are those memories
yeap.
i'll ry to move on
anyway. i m tired
working for six days straight
n derek ... u turtle
ronaldhino scores again..
wahahaha BARCA rules
royston.
derek owe us tarilkk.. wahahah
i`ve made a wish ;
7:52 PM
hmmm jus wanna say thanks yea..
at least u are the nly one ho showed some concern
yea as a fren... yea. fren.
sorry yea
i know u just concern
but i reli appreciate it
sumtimes i realli wish to share it with others
and yet when pple do wish to listen to my sorrows
i m at a loss for words..
i do not know whats wrng with myself too
i know u care as a fren.
and i apprecitae that
i did not mean to drive u off or anything.
jus that i realli dun know how to put evything into woords
sorry if i ruined ur day.
didnt mean to do so.
i m not being sarcastic or what yea
hope u uds.
reallly sorry.
i was jus feeling v v down
sorry once again.
yeaps.. frens forever yea ?
hope that u not angry le.
cos i realli didnt mean to be liek so rude
hmm hope u see this bahz.
anyway. gotta go.. bubbyes
horoscope: gemini
you may not express as well as you might. and thats becos ur feelings and desires are so strong
i`ve made a wish ;
5:28 PM
stop treating me like a idiot.
me aint a fool
stop pushing me around'
if i m nt welcomed
i wun be thick skinned'
u neednt be so obviuos
fuck you
guessed i m slow or sumthing'
but i seen it
i've understood it
i've read it
wish u all the best
everything jus suck
everything jus dun get in my way
i`ve made a wish ;
4:22 PM
yeayea all the way to poly...
wow. suddenly realised so many pple are going to poly.
hmmm... yea... having slpless nights these few days
i have so much to say
bt i begnin to wonder
why bother to speak
if what i m gona say will irritate u
maybe u are happy now
and maybe thats the main thing i need to know
i jus dun wanna be a bug
jus dun know give u stress n irritate pple.
agh nvm.
thats why i say i m relli contardictin myself.
well..
gonna be busy these few days
gonna work like crazy
all thanks to my chckenpox colleague
hope can join ya guys for soccer on wed midnight
if cant not my fault arh?
yea.
dou yi jing guo le na me jiu
wo shi zong fang bu xia de
hai shi ni..
i`ve made a wish ;
6:52 AM
sorry to all who tagged.
i m alright
hasnt been online these few days so couldnt reply ur tags
thanks anyway
well. ive made it! yes
to tp biotech.
i promise myself i'll do my best.
dun worry lar chongky.
i m alright lar..
share with u arhhs? u alaways dun know die until where
aiya. u got things also dun wan share with me i share with u for what?
haha. kidding lar nvm lar.
you'll nvr uds too.
well went to wtch final destinaion 3 ytd.
the show was disgusting.
went to kovan met a ren for dinner'
then went home
'
sometimes i really wonder whats wrong with me
somehow theres a angel and a devil within me'
one part of me seemed to say yes
while the other no
feel just so contradicted within me
the feeling is just so nbearable.
yet i feel i have to withstnd everything alone..
sucks!
i`ve made a wish ;
6:38 PM
