argh. ruined day.
jus reached home from work.
but i realised i have a lot of work undone
argh!
how i miss those days in sch
how we used to fool around
how we laughed around
though we are separated
but i did tried to catch up with u guys
erharps the distance was jus too far
or perharps things have changed
or perharps we are too stressed with our own lives
dun know why
i jus cant seem to communicate with anyone
argh.
i was jus tryin to get a meet up session
but u all was like....
argh forget it man.
so hurt la yea
so called frens
so called brothers
are u guys still in for it ?
nvm la.
i already feel so empty liao la
so pissed.
so tired
and all these have to come to me
what the fark la.
knn.
ARgh
i`ve made a wish ;
12:04 AM
hmmm welll.
ihave had a bad day today
hmmm was tired so went home n slp.
well when i wkoe up i had a slittin headache
but yet i quarrelled with my dad
so i jus took my texbtook
and ran out of the house
perharps im at fault
but i m rell pissed n tired
ovr my own world yea
haiz.....
i dun know lar
SUMONE HELp
i`ve made a wish ;
11:53 PM
YEAh! i finished muggin for my oc.
wahahha i m gonna score for it
yea.. going to sch soon le.
hope here'll be some programs aft sch abhz
i m totally tired.
haiz
whats is happening to me manz.
SCREAMZ
i`ve made a wish ;
8:11 AM
hmm well. today had a pipc quiz
kinda easy for me...
hmm then aft that was the ccn day
wahahah we had fun la
run arund everywhere
then cp bought me n fren go staff office
haha so cool manz.
yea. than at 7 had grnadfather bday dinner
it was early so i went to tm with my classmates
hmmm yea. saw iris, jasmine... lots la
yea saw u two...
hmmm. yea then went down to pasir ris
had a wonderful dinner
hmmm...
now i have to mug for my OC
haiz.
sumthings burning within me.
why do things kip coming back.
arargh
i`ve made a wish ;
10:05 PM
haiz. kinda dejected today.
well, met yuan for breakfast before going sch
then saw jasmine, saw qian
yea..
aft that was a series of lec
slpin.
then aft that well,
some one kinda screwed up the class spirit
pls la
we are not sec sch anymore
u neednt spoonfeed us with what we need to do
u uds? we dun like to be commanded
ass.
haiz.
watched dream caser last epi.
what a sad ending.
perharps yea.
love always end this way
haiz..
jus what m i tinkin
jus who m i?
im stuck in e middle.
i dun know which way to go. ARGh
i`ve made a wish ;
9:02 AM
wah. 1200am. i jus reached home
actually stayed in sch till six plus
then went with alden to cs for arcade
waahah then went bbt.
aft that i met juan n luo
for dinner at 85.
but then we landed up in tamp till 11 plus
haiz. mum was furiuos liao
wahahahha
what a tiring day.
anyway
got back some results.
biochem lab - 10/10
maths stats - 7/10
i hope the others will be good also bahz
yawns
i m tired.
i`ve made a wish ;
12:21 AM
was readin my hap tb
but was bored.
my new pair of addidas.
"NEW ARRIVAL"
cool eh ? i love it. totaaly gorgeous
and this is me
im so bored in the tutorial.
retro eh ?
i m jus feelin bored
and somehow lost.
could sumone guide me ?
i m tired.
i`ve made a wish ;
11:21 PM
wah. back from work.
tell u what
i feel in love with a pair of addidas sneaker
they look gorgeous la
i m GONNA buy them
no matter how my mum nag
WAHHAHA
hmm yea. kinda tired from work
haiz
then have to juggle with studies
haiyo.
farnie feelin within me
haiz.
im like divided into 2 person
one is yes n one is no
aiyayayaya
too good to be true ?
i`ve made a wish ;
11:36 PM
HMMM FINALLY
done with maths quiz, biochem, hap
all i m left with is PIPC n OC
wahahahz. kinda very happy
all the quizzes are easy jus that i m careless
LOL.
anyway.
aft class went to meet shu yi
to watch davinci code
hehez. went to tm but then seats were filled
then went to century
werent any better.
left fers two rows.
lol.
then went to eat my fishball noodles,
becos sumone isnt in mood for billy bomber
lolz.
yea. quite nice bahz the movie.
i rate it 3.5 /5
wahahahz. yea tml still gotaa work
wel. enjoyed the day today
=)
sitting on the fence
i`ve made a wish ;
12:06 AM
haiz like screwed up everything
firstly i think i did badly for my quiz.
lost two marks.
n i did the e lab thingy. wrong two questions
DAMNED!
n i wasnt payin attention to the HAP lectures
i think i have alot to catch up
now i m muggin like hell
for the bloody quizzzes
haiz. dun thin i can make it
MATHS, SUCKS
aiay aiaya aiaya....
CONFUSED LA...
WAKE UP WAKE UP!!!!!!!
ARGh!
pissed sad confused
its 18th ?
why do i still rmb? ARGGGGHHH
i`ve made a wish ;
11:07 PM
hmm today after sch was suppoed to go k box
but then suddenly all like not free
hehe sorry arh guys if i am a bit attitude =(
so sorry
yea so i went ahead to meet shu yi alone
was like very pai seh lar.
haiyo. acually confirmed with her everything
then ended up watchin the wild with her
wahaah =) so cute la the kola
lol then we took bus to bedok 85
sat down there n chat
only had a sugar cane juice
then we took bus back to tamp again
went to sakae. ate and chatted there la
wahahahzx
n now. i have to mug for my BIOchEm
actuallly alady studied. so jus revising.
hmm.
C`O`N`F`Us`Ed
i`ve made a wish ;
10:25 PM
well was ps byy class mates.
they didint went k. =(
perharps today theres a make-up session
n i think shy yi joining us
n i have to be at PS by seven to meet pei ling
wnder if i can be on time
basically aft sch met up with CK qian luo n yuan
n we went to swensens to ave a meal la
spent 20 over bucks
jus to mkae my stomach happy
those tempting ice creamz. wahahahz=)
suddenly realised these few days i have been
stuffin myelf with all those foods n junks
haiz =(
n i cant belive i slpt at nine last night
haiz i m tired.
i have no idea
thoughts are straning my brain
hao ma bu chi hui tou chao ?
haiz.
this verse struck me.
completely.
i`ve made a wish ;
6:46 AM
human anatomy n physiology
topic : DNA
i finally mastered it.
FINALly
after stay in in the lib till 8 plus
jus to study fer all the quizzes this week
haiz. BUSy like hell.
tody had lab work,
kinda jus revising on old topics.
bored!
then basically aft sch went to study la
daily routine.
tml maybe goiin k box
hope they are going la
i need to released so many things
haiz
now doing HAP tutorial
aiya. pissed liao
think leave it for tml bahz
yawns.
i m tired
i m jus like an eggshell
n eveyrhtin jus kip pilin up above me
breakin down soon.
forget?
no!
i`ve made a wish ;
11:24 PM
yawns. woke up so early today
cos have to do some research
before i cn go sch later
hmm kinda tired
well... now finally donw everything
listenin to yue ding, shan hu hai
kind like listening to my own story =(
haiz
gonna run now
else i'll be late
for my lunch with my peers
everything's still there.
cos for me, i m very sure.
istll
i`ve made a wish ;
10:07 AM
hmmm. well.. back ffrom work
actually back from supper
wahhahas. managed to ask yuan n luo to acc me
though they ave their own gf's liao
but well. guys. i uds de lar
wun force u all to acc me de =)
muhhahaz
kinda farnie.
whereeva i go i hear that full house song
n i see everyone smiling so sweetly to their own fone
am i jelaous or what ? =(
well when i got home i then realisd i got so many thing
i had to prepare for tml lesson
n thank god lesson starts at twelve
if not.... haiz.
kinda weird la
when u rally miss sumone badly.
anyone who wlaked past u
can look like her... weird. =S
yawns. need some slp.
n i mean NOw
lol. n kelly. u bette do well for this exams ok.
when u arefree then i give u a call or what bahz
hehez.
yeaps. thats all =)
still
but in silence
i`ve made a wish ;
11:51 PM
hmmm went o work today as usual
welll. saw alfred.
then saw yuan his lover
n guessed wad
i've got a shock of my life
WEI LUO GOT GIRlfREN
N she's YUAN's gf's fren
wonder whats going true thier minds
n heard that they are progressin fast
jus hope that they are real bahz
funny feelin .
hmmm. yea
tired out~~~
was informed theres lotsa quizzs n test nex week
gonna mug but i find no time=(
anywya val, thanks for ur cookies
it tasted nice =)
kinda miss my sch life n
AF12
miss the laughters
hahaz. cant wait to see ya guys
HAIZ! gary ah gary, wake up!!!!!!!!
why do i still feel so much ?
why do i still feel for u
when everything has alady been saed?
i have no idea
i`ve made a wish ;
11:26 AM
work work work
study study study
simply. i m going crazy.
well. today was not a tiring day
cos bascially i folded alot of clothes
the most i have ever folded
kinda fun though
yea. on my wya home i was damn tired
nearly slpt on the bus
bus when i reached interchange
saw things that remind me
haiz.
nvm.
feelin so blank
feelin so frustated
but cant find a way to get everything out
once.
i was the creator of those memories
but i destroyed them with my own hands
piisssed.tired.frstrated
i`ve made a wish ;
11:29 PM
hmm. tese few days have been stayin in sch till v late
jus to study
perharps say with my clicks
they'll mka eme laugh more.
n gradually i wun think so much abt ervythng
thanks ar.
yea. i alady have the clear pic of everything
but i cant to seem whats hppening within me
kinda easy to say i uds
bu yet can i really let go ?
i jus dun uds myself.
walkin in the rain on my way home
droplets of water touched my cheeks
izzit the rain? izzi my tears?
sumtimes i'd rather belive its the rain
maybe it will be better
n i've injured my back.
kinda hurtin now.
cant breathe
but iwill be workin fri sat sun
its tiring i know
to stduy n work.
but at least it'll occupy my time. n rather
not get me to think abt things
haiz.
what if i still say i miss u ?
i`ve made a wish ;
10:56 PM
hmm well
came by a quote today
forgettin sumone u love is jus like tryin to rmb a peron u nv met
hmm kinda true la
hopefuly i can
hmm well i dun know ba
move on? stay?
hmmm dun wish to think
anyway today was fers lab lesson
kinda cool to dress up like prof.
yea
aft that went home
on music n layed on bed doing nth
then met jy at nite go 85
ate alot
i need to digest everything
hopefull i can
i`ve made a wish ;
11:50 AM
hmm well. i guessed im still tryin to digest everything bah
n thats why i looked so glum
my classmates seemed to be worried
wahaha no worry la guys
hmmm i think i m alright
yeaps. thankz
mmm. lesson end at 12
but i styaed till four
wasnt really starin blankly into space
jus sortin out my tots
yea.
chocs bar + chocolte milk+ a big pack of choc milk
i need chocs badly.
i`ve made a wish ;
11:28 PM
thats me
i take a long time to digest things
instead i react greatly without thinkin'
n guessd what, i've thought it thru
if ureally love a person, set her free'
ain't easy, but 'll mkae sure i 'll do it
i jus anna thank you for those wonderul momment u gave me
when u appeared in my life.
at least u've made a decicion
for us to all move on
me may nvrknow what will happen
but for now
i wish u all the best in watever u do
there'll sure be better peeps out there than me
yea. dun worry abt me yea.
im fine, its gotaa be time i learn to control my emotion
yeap. well.
friends?
i`ve made a wish ;
7:35 AM
i m not blming anyone
i can only blame myself for havin high hopes
for being too confident of myself
in fact i think i m jus concolin myself
aft so long. all my hopes
are gone
i dun think i can ever smile again
im gonna breakdown soon
i m dead. totally dead
i thought things would be better
but i was wrong.
in the end, it proved to me that its the end
guess what.
i'll guesed i'll nvr ever belive in love again.
NEVER
I HATE MYSELf
I HATEVERYONE
JUS FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE
i`ve made a wish ;
11:15 PM
i m not blming anyone
i can only blame myself for havin high hopes
for being too confident of myself
in fact i think i m jus concolin myself
aft so long. all my hopes
are gone
i dun think i can ever smile again
im gonna breakdown soon
i m dead. totally dead
i thought things would be better
but i was wrong.
in the end, it proved to me that its the end
guess what.
i'll guesed i'll nvr ever belive in love again.
NEVER
I HATE MYSELf
I HATEVERYONE
JUS FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE
i`ve made a wish ;
8:11 AM
hmmm... let me tell u sumthing la.
im kinda drunk n giddy now
jus cme back from bbq took cab with frens
wahahahz. so fun. had a drink or two there
hmmm... fers to reached home
thanks ar guys
hmmm though not feelin well. i still jumped into the pool
i feel so giddy alady n yet i still took a drink
gosh aft thqt i could no longer walk properly.
feelin giddy like pig.
haiz.
aftnoon actually went to bowl with louis
to get him prepared for his trials
then aft went to study with hui yi n alden n louis
yea.. found out that actually each of us had prob in love
hui yi was like waiting for her guy
kinda the same boat as me.
haha totally uds how she feels but cheer up la.
hmmm. n for derek. i could see the enthusiasim in his eyes
when he told me it was fate la.
that he met kelly.
dun know if that meant anything.
i dun know also la
haiz.
i m not sick of waiting
but it reallly feels frustrated
when u can only jus sit n wait
for sumthing that might even not happen
haiz.
damn!
iloveyou.
come back will ya?
i m really seriuos... haiz
i really still do.
ArgH.
how i wish i could show how much i really care
how sincere i really am.
ARGHHH!!!!!
imdying of fatigue.
i`ve made a wish ;
12:41 AM
hmm tody was liek so qiao ar...
early in the morning. sat u
but u were waitin forur frens so i din say hi
jus sat threre n looked at u.
hmmm then during lunch saw u at mensa.wahahahz
then aft lectures went to biz canteen saw u again
n u are very violent
fers time in tp someone kicked me!
PIG!
hmmm basically i m tired la.
slpt in LT
kuku sia. cant unds
but stayed in lib till 8 plus with classmates
claered my doubts liaoz.
hmm tml goota go downton with them
then have bbq in evening.
gosh.
tired out
hey. have u decided?
give me one more chance...
can ma?
i`ve made a wish ;
11:10 AM
well. 2nd entry before i slp.
today went for APEl.
yea what is success? fufiling one's dreams?
yea it aint any wrong to have dreams
in fact everyone does
but what abt mine ?
is mine too good to be true
then it will nvr happen ?
by beliebin in it
am i jus tryin to bluff myself?
yes i care abt it.
but i m losing confidence.
who am i? i m not a star
i m not as good lookin as other guys
i might be as sweet n caring as anyone
so what makes me belive that it will ever happen?
i m jus a nobody,
compared to many many who are much more better
all along perharps i might be jus tellin myself a lie
that everythin will come true.
i .. argh ...hm...
i don't know.
ifeel so pain within me.
i`ve made a wish ;
12:04 AM
hmmm. today finally felt better
gueessed i over worrried liao
myabe its jus heatstroke or sumthing
dun worry liao ar kellly. good luck fo ya exams too
hmm today meet yuan for lec
than all busese full
hail no cab
so we pon two hr lec. went tamp
ate n played arcad then went back sch
couldnt uds the lec.
mind was jus flying elsewhere la.
yea at night met yuan
sat under a void deck
ate potato chips drank bbt there
and then he did his work
n i jus stared blankly on the roads.
thinkin abt alot things la.
yea xinnni ar. if u see this ar
yea jus wanna say yuan loves u alot la
love him for who he is. regardless of his past yea.
hope to see u two together long long ar.
as for me...
yuan ar... know that u tryin to guide me la
but i think u dun uds how i feel de la
let go as u saed? its like been so long la.
haiz. dun know how to tell u also.
i feelin so vexed u know?
nvm la. see u happy at least also cheers me up
at least my frens are happy yea.
hmmm. what else ? yea.
alden's hamster died. cheer up la bro.
anyway. theres a gatherin for 4b on sat
i miss them badly.
i really miss the past badly.
yea past. past. past.
haiz. whatever.
i m toally pissed by my own thoughts la.
heart jus felt so sour
so pain.
but i cant let out everything?
can u imagine the frustration within me ?
gosh. when was the last time tt i really smiled?
i cant rmb. i really cant.
i've lost eveything
since the day u went away.
argh. im serachin for an ans
to a question that appear to be unanswered
im tired.
i m frustrated,
im vxed
i m irritated
BY MYSELF.
/holdingbackmytears/
i`ve made a wish ;
11:38 PM
hmm i wonder whats wrong with my body
i aint kiddin lar
but its gettin worst. i feel giddy very sudden n often
my sight is like failin me. i couldnt even stand properly.
im jus very afriad it has gotta be something with the brain
i hope it'll get better
i m so afriad of death suddenly.
hmmm dun wanna die yet.
so many things i haven do
so many things i wanna do
maybe i m thinkin too much bahz
even frens can see that i feel sad
but i guessed they'll nv understand why
wheneva in sch i ill try to look around to catch a glimpse of u
but yet i nv saw u
however when i dun have intention to look for u
you always appeared in my sight
does things always happen when u dun put too much thoughts into them?
or rather things wun ever happen when u put too much thoughts into them ?
i really reallly wanna know whats going thru ur mind.
but yet i have no courage to ask
cos i dun wanna see u feelin vexed over this.
i really want u to come back to me
but yet i m jus waitin in silence
action speaks louder than words. but what can i do ?
haiz. i m jus caught in between
i m jus contradctin between myself
hmmm. loss for words/
anyway i jus hope things will go well
mst importantly my health.
this is the fers time i feel such often giddines
i hope thats only temporary
n theres nothing wrong with my health.
i m full of worries. for everything .
BELEIVE ME ONCE MORE
will ya?
ifeelsotired
isitahintthatdeathwiouldbebetter?
i`ve made a wish ;
8:31 AM
well. i guessed i should cal it fate bahz.
aft class today i was at the bkshop
then made my way to bus stop to get home
on the way from the cca notice boards
i took a glance over the opp side, design canteen
i saw a familiar bag, and that familiar shoe
then i realised i saw u
tried to fasten my pace
so i can say a hi to you
but u went up the administrative bblock
yea so off i went to the bus stop
23 came. but i couldnt board. crowded
so i managed to squueeze on a 15 beind with classmates
when on the bus
jus as the door was closin
my classmates was wavin at a girl who she saed was her p sch mate
jus as i looked in that direction
u were beside her fren
everything was so near yet so far.
kinda farnie though
we din see each other
hmm when i reached inter
suddenly u appeared n front of me again.
yea n i finlly maneged to say a hi.
hmm. everythin like happened even though we thought it would not
kinda very farnie.
we took diff bus. diff routes
but finally we met.
hmmm.
perharps we have took a big big round
izzit time that we will really meet ?
will u nod ur head or would u turn away?
yea. when placed in a situation
we either choose to FIght or take the FLight.
can u jus take my hand and we fight everything togetehr ?
will it happen this way ?
take my hand once agin wll ya?
hmmm. anyway. today at CSAS had a five hr break
made our way to bbt shop
i couldnt wake straight
i was feelin real giddy
luckily i ate down 2 panadols n had a rest thre
everything in my sight was jus moving la
seems so scary n the feelin wasnt good
argh. SICk. fatigue.
say u love me.
i`ve made a wish ;
10:26 PM
hmm kinda very busy bah. jus reached home
the time is 1am.
kena nagged by parents
but lucky me got on the last bus. phew
yea today woke up aft receivin shuyi's call
din expect she really gave me morning call. thanks
nex time i everyday dependant on ur call then u know
LOL. nah its really sweet of u.
wahahahz
yea tired day at work.
fnally ended
met with colleagues n manager
for pool at pp
yea then went home.
hmmm dun eveer lose faith in love
haiz. some times i reallly hope
i can really noe whats going thru in ur mind.
haiz. i wish i can stop guessin u know?
dun get affected by others.
dun know bahz
thats all i can say.
if by now i m still unable to change ur mind.
i m indeed a failure.
i m really tired. gonna rush my assignment now. bb
FATUGUE.
SUMBODY SAVE ME
i`ve made a wish ;
1:14 AM
hmmm wt the hell. jus reached home from work.
today was like damn busy
all thanks to the crazy sales.
made me real insane.
LOL.
anyway yea. i was accompanied for lunch n dinner
how nice.
LOL.
yea. kinda very tired.
aft we were closed.
we tidied up till 1200 midnight
and i was here home finally ..
tml still had to report at 10 for
n guessed what.
my tutotrials, assignment and everything is still undone
WHAt the hell!
anyway. yar.
hmm dun know what else to say
hmm....
i misssed u so
i love u so.
i m sure u do too, right?
i`ve made a wish ;
1:20 AM
