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alrights. jus home n slurped my dinner
well. went to tm with yuan n yong
cos their mannager leavin
and i know him quite welll
so we bought a cake.
and gave him a surprise farewell party.

alright. i think sumthings's down
i couldnt upload the pics
anyway i drawn a card for him too
well... im the master artist
n theres two co artist la
LOL

alright first psy tut today
kinda cold. but nvrtheless
there were frens there
hehe. presented my grp's discussion
cool man.
hey i really liked psy
so pls. dun damped my spirit
n put me in a lousy team alright =)

alright i need to say something
went to play bball with yong in sch
from 10am to 11 plus
guess what.
i've completely lost my skills
i was so pissed la huh
it seems like its gone.
n im nvr gonna have it back
yea... for everythin it apllies

oh well. i wish to slp now

.the emotional me.

pardon me for being so sad all of a sudden
this is jus part of human biological psychology
caused by emotions

tryin to blend badly into this f'ed up sittuation

i`ve made a wish ;
12:11 AM

alright i admit i was very very tired
woke at 8am but i slpt at 2am
i slpt in lecture. n the lectuerer was right in frnt of me
so pai seh la.
he asked if im alright

fiannnly scraped thru all tut n lec
finally can go for my interesting psy lec
i walked all alone to lt21
i pushed the door
damn, it was so full
so i jus got a seat at the back and sit down
hen i saw wan qian
wonderin why she's from sociology n i can see her
i tot i was in the wrong lt
so i rushed out
but in the end.
i was in the right lT
how dumb could i be
anyway psy lec today was interesting
another day down.

when we are too focused on something
we tend to neglect the small, even big details
jus like love.
when it began, all those pain seemed so neglilable
till when is too painful, we tend to neglect
whether we love each other.
anyway, there are too much variables in life
which cause changes
too much i guesssed.

la~la~la~
i want to sing badly.

huidaoguoqu

ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONGKY DARLING
U WILL ALWAYS STAY IN MY HEART
TOUCHED ANOT?
BROTHERS FOR LIFE MAN
A KISS I PROMISE
MUACKSS> WAAHAHAHAa
u better read this i tell u. =)

i`ve made a wish ;
10:39 PM

alrights. jus reached home not long ago
firstly. i gotta wished suwei
HAPPY BIRTHDAy!

alright. work was boring today
bryan came along to visit me with his gf
haha. no bad ar bro? happy for u.

aft work met suwei cos she was in pp
went home together
as i was cravin for supper
we settled at a coffeshop
then suddenly i realised her bday
was in half an hour's time
and all the shops were closed
and i had no cakes nor candles
so i walked into cheers
grabbed a typical sara-lee cake
bought a lighter n dumped into my bag

walked her home...
at the playground
brought out the "cake" n candle
haha. so farnie lar can
i actually forgot a fren's bday
anyway sorry alright
no proper cake n stuff
hope u liked it!

well well.
lesson's gonan start at 9
n im still wide awake.
everything feels so different at work
i can feel it.

being a winner
is learining to lose
i'll bear that in mind
i've lost in love.

i`ve made a wish ;
1:30 AM

piangs. what a day
i survived on noodles
i mean instant noodles for the whole day
worked at 1pm
lunched at4pm
ate noodles...
all the way till 10pm

i super tired now.
guess i better go turn in for the night.
nights everyone

then.
i din wana let go
cos i know u wun come bck
but u still went on.

i`ve made a wish ;
12:50 AM

alright. the alarm went on like no one's biz
i shut it off n went back to slp.
then i woke up startled
i have lessons at 8am
lol thank god i wasnt late

well. atteneded quite alot lec
learned pretty much things
lunched at mensa
miss the food there yea
been so long.

aft class went to pool
with amberlyn, alden n weng tat
n oh ya wen tat has a new girlfren
he went on to meet her
n we bussed home

what fuck?
i was told i need not work
n i was called back for work again tml
hell la.
i could have enjoyed myself pretty much tml
cos i think i 'll have a full-packed day
nvrtheeless money's important
im bankrupt
n im in debt to my mum
omg!!!

ERIC BERNE, a famous psychologist said:
a loser doesn't know what he'll do if he loses,
but talks abt what he'll do if he wins
a winner doesnt talk abt what he'll do if he wins
but knows what he'll do if he loses

omg. psychology is damn interesting i tell u
cant be daunted by the first lec

i guessed so.
im a perfect loser
cos im too postive.
nvr gonna be a chance
to be a winner again.
i admit defeat.
totally.

i`ve made a wish ;
11:43 PM

alright woke up quite late today
dan called me, he workin at 4pm
so he met me n biked me down to pp
lunched n pooled
he sent me baclkk to bedok
n he left for work

hate helmets
no morehair-dos

met derek n alvin
went to alvin's house
slacked n ps'ed
went for socer
hahaz. din play much though
finally. home sweet home

wanted to print notes badly
but my printer's down
argh damn.
how am i going to survive tml then?

even an optimist will become a pessimist
even a knight in shiny armour
loses his bravery
even good turns evil
now i fear.
waht will become of me ?

when everything goes wrong
when everything falls apart
it isnt up for me to deicde anymore

i`ve made a wish ;
10:42 PM

well. woke uup at 8am
found out i had no lessons
so my sis skipped her work
n we cabbed down to find mum
who was babysittin our two lil kuzzins
haha went there to play with them
but both of them wasnt feelin well
so had to carry tehm while at the market
LOL. n one of them even cried
when i left for another destination

alrights. mrt all the way to simei
collected my sony 750
there was a very very unreasonable customer
irritating fool
mrt with yong n ck to ms
watched deathnote
wnjoyable movie
nice plot. ahaha lookin forward to the 2nd episode

cabbed down to tamp
met with yuan n tm manager
went to tm's fmaily rest. sakura-like
n omg sibei pai seh the manager treated us yea
hahaz. alright food was excellent
i slurped alot of oysters too =)

went to cs. raced
i won again.
=)
hm have to apologise guys
i admit i was in a foul mood
which explains my bad attitude
i guessed my attitude these few days wasnt really good.
nvm i have one whole day tml
no sch. nothing
to do some self-reflection.

how could somehting be possible
when u alrdy deemed it as impossible

alright. if thats the case
i shall slowly walk away.

i`ve made a wish ;
11:48 AM

alrights. jus woke up
i've got nothign to do i guess
perharps ging down to toa payoh to visit my 2 lil kuzzins

yeap all of a sudden i woke up
from very bad dreams
n nice one maybe
perhaprs i should have jus stayed in my dreams

yeap. in life.
it will always be better when we learn to let go.
perharps by doing that
we learn to smile even more
but wat if we tried?
but we still cant?
does it says that our heart dun even wanna let go?
human mind. fascinating
thats why im doing psychology
find an ans gary
though i know i've got one.

-thanks. i guessed i really felt better
-i've done my best, its up to them to interpret


its simply.
wo aishiteru
you hear that?
i dun ever wanna let go
forget it. i juss stubborn
like a 3year old.

here i come breakfast.

i`ve made a wish ;
8:44 AM

ok, selamat hari raya to alll
spent my whole day workin
well kelly came to acc me for lunch
but main purpose was to pass me derek's gift
yeap. jus like that

i tell myself
im gonna try to abstain from beer
or any alcoholic drinks
cos now im still feelin quite awful
argh =(

ultra tired
ultra moody

haiz.
feelin so fucked up now
how dumb i can be.

was i a fool?
they all say i was
but i dont care.
what abt u ?

i`ve made a wish ;
12:05 AM

alright. must admit. i lsot my cool
two times in a single day
well sch wasnt bad.
i feelll aslp during lec again
yeap. got my hp scrn protector during the break
10 bucks yea
well. met qian n ck
went for psycho lec
it doesnt seem to be interesting
but i hope i really get to learn something
which is in my cuiriosity

aft that met luo n yong
yeap went for dinner.

siao eh
perharps i sounded too rude
sorry yea
i really dun like the situation now
where by there's a barrier between us
i admit perharps its becos of my comment
i've apologise
i've lowered my head
i've given out my pride.
so...
welll. lost my cool the fers time

dinner was superb at fish n co
ate seafood platter
drank lime foggie
though the alcoohlic lvl was very high
i finish half a cup in 1 min
i admit i was drnk
but only visually i guess
cos i still get to know whats happening around me

they say drunkard speaks from their heart
so what if i say i still love u
does dinner taste jus so superb
or is it becos u are around?

.jus take it as im drnk.

i`ve made a wish ;
9:39 PM

first thing to annouce!
i"ve GOT MY CHOCOLATE
wahhaha nice fone
however i love its design more than its function

went to sentosa today
with half of my sec 4 class
LOL. really had fun man
thanks loads guys
misss those times in sch.
yea. volley ball around.. soccer around..
swam around.
n guess what. birds are blind
they shit without takin notice
n their faeces landed on me LOL

aft that went to vivo city
damn it was jus too crowded so we deicded to leave
went to PS.. ate our lunch there
haha they bought a cake for the october babies
n we sang a birthday song at the foodcourt
so attention seekin la LOL

was planning to watch a show
but think everyone's too tired
so we went paradiz centre
slacked around the arcade

bid farewell
followed derek, mushroom amos n bra
to an italian cafe
watched MAN u vs LIv
had our sumptuous dinner there too
n there.
jus reached home

damn really enjoyed my day man
my bank is running low
i've crossed the line
in debt to my mum for 250
for the chocolate
ahhhhhh!
no more shoppin
no more deliciuos meals
no more spendin


alrights. shall turn in for the night
need to go sch tml.
hope it'll be fun

i dreamt abt u
but does dreams come true?

i`ve made a wish ;
11:23 PM

guessed what. i woke up home alone
suddenly have the urge to send my fone for service
so i called dan n travelled to simei
thought my warranty was overdue
but that guy chnaged the date for me
thanks so much dude
LOL

anyway was planning to change fone
so tot of gettin it in gd condition
before returning to uncle or trading in
first choice fone : chocolate
second one :W850I
but how am i supposed to raise so much $

anyway i cabbed down to pp.
ate llunch n started work with dan
now im stuck with a "beep beep" fone
whic even embaraasss me when it rings
LOL =))

wonder why was abit pissed during work
felt as though was pushed around
hey. im young
but i aint any greenhorn yea
argh. nvm holidays ending
so sch startin..

lalala!
happy deepavali~~

on that day when it all fell apart
i braved thru all storms
to pick up the broken pieces
but there was still one last missing piece
-you

i`ve made a wish ;
12:24 AM

guessed what. i woke up home alone
suddenly have the urge to send my fone for service
so i called dan n travelled to simei
thought my warranty was overdue
but that guy chnaged the date for me
thanks so much dude
LOL

anyway was planning to change fone
so tot of gettin it in gd condition
before returning to uncle or trading in
first choice fone : chocolate
second one :W850I
but how am i supposed to raise so much $

anyway i cabbed down to pp.
ate llunch n started work with dan
now im stuck with a "beep beep" fone
whic even embaraasss me when it rings
LOL =))

wonder why was abit pissed during work
felt as though was pushed around
hey. im young
but i aint any greenhorn yea
argh. nvm holidays ending
so sch startin..

lalala!
happy deepavali~~

on that day when it all fell apart
i braved thru all storms
to pick up the broken pieces
but there was still one last missing piece
-you

i`ve made a wish ;
12:14 AM

omg im super duper tired now
i wonder why but i woke up at 8am
felt that it was a pretty good morning
so i grabbed my towel n went for a jog
however, it was barely 2km
and i started panting.
gosh. i need more exercise i guess

yeap. timetable's out
im in psychology =)
first choice. but rather lonely
all my classmates separated

yea went for work aft that.
and then qian was so kind la.
came down to acc me for dinner
n i pulled her for steamboat.
now tell me. who eats steamboat two times in two days
LOL. =) anyway we really slurped down quite alot of food
deliciuos meal yea.
thanks for the company.
apprecitaed.

yawns. i really tired now.
feel like slping.
anyway i wanna go joggin tml
anyone ???
n yar. mum n sis going out early in the morning.
home alone, breakfast alone.
OMG. think better get instant noodles.

lookinf forward to sun
4b gatherin
i miss you guys man,!

we've moved on.
but have our hearts done so?
defeinitely not for me.

anyway.
i was so stupid
i trapped my hand in my locker
n got a big cut.

i`ve made a wish ;
11:55 PM

omg. its certainly hard to work with an injured ankle
can feel the strain while climbing the ladders
n whats worst
i aint have any medicine
so i m jus leaving it alone
hope it'll be okae soon.

other than that
im havin muscle aches all over my body.
haha. i really need exercise man.

yeap. think i have to say sorry
wonder what happened
but wasnt in the right mood when i got home
quarelled with my sis
argued with my dad
picking over small issues with my mum
gosh. i need some reflection alrdy
hmm.
super moodless n speechless man

work again tml.
leg ar... recover soon ok?

wahahah

画面开始没有她
我还在装傻

i`ve made a wish ;
12:40 AM

gosh its so unfair.
she looks so adorable when takin pic with my kuzzin
but she looks like i-don't-care
when she takes the pic with me
Arghh LOL

gos im hungry now.
no food. =(
n i dun know why
my ankle doesnt sweelll
but it hurts.
nvm sprained it alot times already
think its already used to it
wahahahz


seeing those tears
i instantly felt how much hurt
i've caused in the past.

18th
eighteenth

i`ve made a wish ;
12:49 AM

woke up as early as 8
went to bedok inter
met with yuan, yong, n two managers
haha
then went sports hall for tennis
i thought i was easy
aint that simple though
but yea. it was ddefinitely fun =)

after that went to bedok cc to bball
yea got injured during a match
though i managed to get the ball in the net
i din fail to sprain my ankle.
ouch. how to work sia...
lucky nv swollen

went to eat teppan yaki
one of the manager treat
farewell huh? hmmm
bussed my way home aft that
slacked, cleaned my watch
cleaned my bag.
watched tv.
all the way till now.

bored bored....

giving up without trying?
or once bitten twice shy?


如果说分手是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍

i`ve made a wish ;
5:12 PM

argh think theres sumthing wrong with the blooger
din managed to get my post updated
nvm shall write another one =)

yeap. bad day for me.
woke up with headache.
but still went to mahjonged whole day

n yar. i broke a plate jus now
=( argh even woke my mum up
feel so bad.
swept n mopped before i could dine

time to catch some rest i think

slp. best cure for everything =)

i`ve made a wish ;
12:48 AM

hmmmm woke up as brightly as 8am last morning
then my dad mum n i went to pick up a lil girl
who was my father's fren daughter.
haha shes so very adorable yea.
then went to meet my uncle n his family.
travwlled all teh way to toa payoh
n dined at a dim sum restaurant
aft went my kuzz's house to search for the two lil cuties
but they were out.
=(
so my dad drove me to work.

damn the bloddy haze
nmy thraot is gettin affected yea.
yeap. n i was greeetd by a surpirse la
qian came to "visit " or rather shocked me la
btw i think ur bro's grown taller =)

yeap. thats abt all
gonan have tennis seesssion with managers on tues
hope it'll be fun
my first time though
=)

girl. you know too well how i feel
all along u know it.
girl sometimes i jus wished u'll stay happy
but yet i wish u were by my side.
hmmm.

asiwatchedudistancedfromme

i`ve made a wish ;
11:03 AM

loook. im gettin tired of my life.
seriuosly. im all worn out.
physically. emotionally.
i wish i can fall sick
a very heavy one
a high fever will do.
at least i willl get to slp.
get to be too weak to think
nvm. i crazi

even superhuman bleeds
but why haven i died
since ive bled for so long.

i`ve made a wish ;
12:01 AM

woosh. gonna work at 1pm.
well ytd met with yong n kelly.
brought kelly to RSH.
told her that we buyin jacket for another fren
asked her to pick n try
in the end she din know that was the present for her
haha

after that went to orchard
cineleisure for k box.
all the way to 7pm. gosh my voice gone.
aft that wanna watch world trade centre
but well, the timeslot wasnt right
so we landed in an italian restaurant called cream
its pasta was veyr very nice.
seafood spaghetti goreng. cool eh?
yeap.

aft that walked kelly home as it was very late
din know that she had so many prob la yea
but then who doesn't?
chill la yea?
eveyrhitn's nvr gonna go wrong
cos there'll always be sumthing that goes right

i hope.
haha.
yea finally i think im able to convince myself
that i shold wake up.
i dun know.
thats why i dun wish to think
i jus wanna take one step.
live one day.

when the one u love dun love u
thats when ur love being unnecessary

i`ve made a wish ;
11:53 PM

another day off....
welll ytd went to bugis with yuan n yong
went to edge.
found nothing we want
so off we went to fusion
to look for the female cashier
LOL no lar. went there play pool.
aft which we went to eat wanton noodles
then went wei luo house to mahjong
arg i lsot money again.
wht luck,.

aft that went to tamp inter for dinner at10
kelly was around there so she came to meet us
then acc her home with yuan
then went home

yea n now my com is infected with the stinky drsmart thing
who can help yea ?
its irritating me like..... argh.

n i need a new monitor badly
the colors killin me
my eyes are so hurt.

as dark as the skiess could be
i still prefer to decive mysef
that beneath those clouds
a star is shining.

i feel like a fool all of a sudden

i`ve made a wish ;
1:06 PM

hmmm woek ytd was SUPER DUPer boring
there was like no customer.
thank god i worked at 1pm
else it would be disastrous to stand there
like a statue

well.. time passed real slowly.
i vacummed the floor
i mopped the floor
n i restacked the boxes of shoes
n the time was like still stuck there

yeap. luckily i did survived till 930pm.
n went home
had my supper n went to slp.

ultra man of tiredness. =)

xian dan chao ren.
i've lost my powers.
im jus nth but n weak human

i`ve made a wish ;
12:12 PM

wooots. a power pack day today
first i met yuan n yong to pp
then went for our haricut.
after that we made our way down to ms
haha slacked around... shopped around puma boutique
played bowling
empty handed home though

went back to pp
met with both our managers
then had steamboat together
lol kinda fun n deliciuos lar huh..

went straight home aft that
took a bath n went to bryan's house
played mahjong with alvin bryan n drek
yeap. haven caught a single wink yet
n its like 6 am soon
n im workin at 1pm tml.
omg.

hmm hey guys
seriuosly i know im at fault alright
hmm yeap really sorry for the trouble i stirred
yeap. i was too crude i admit
so peace yea =)

yawns.
jus ate mac's delivery.
feelin so full =)

sometime how i wished i could tell u how i feel
but yet sometimes
hmm.. argh... im confused lar..




sign offf...

i`ve made a wish ;
5:51 AM

well well. i haven been able to get the com so many days
welll met up with drek n bryan n alvin
went to watch ROB B HOOd
haha hilariuos show.
then heru came down to join us
so the rabbit, bra, mushroom, durain .n me
got reunited
went to sakurra
ate lotsa lotsa food man

aft that went to E2max
i din know such a place exist though
yeap. left orcahrd n went bra's house
for mahjong session till nex morning
i rushed home at 6am
woke at 10am
went for work
pure torture


to many many people:
i think my post has offended many pple la
i jus wanna make clear
i dun look down on smokers alright
at least u guys had the respect to smoke at other plcaes
but... perhrps im jus so worked out
that my bud took up smoking
aint nothing i can do bout it
so well.
sorry everyone
its purely my fault.
yeap.


im tired.
im pissed.
so so many things in my mind

u know what
i still love u
u know it too well.

but, what can i do
what will happen
all those promises
im still holding them true.

i`ve made a wish ;
12:44 AM

hmmm... what a day.
i do not have any appetite.
from 1130 i stayed in the storeroom
all the way to 2plus.
and all i face was boxxes n boxes n boes
n boxes of shoes..

i was ultra ultra tired.
n ultra hungry. but no appetite
n i was the last for break. at430
what a lunch
but thank god.
drek n co arrived
haha they surprised me though.
missed them so much n they acc me for pasta
yeap then so qiao.
saw gb n hw n amos n gang
lolz.
anyway royston is so so so sweet to his gf la
lover's addidas watch
for alomost 200 bucks.
how swwet

then dinner break at 815pm
i totally dun feel like eating anything
so i bought gardenia bread
n munch on 2 patehttic piece
until now
my stomachs growlin
but. i dun feel like eating
argh

im ultra tired.
bu im ultrallly full of thoughts
ultralically sad.
at the ultrast point

//missing piece//

i`ve made a wish ;
12:18 AM

wooosh. jus reached home from chalet
gonan leave for work soon
well. so much unpleasant thing happen la
i really dun feel like going in depth
sometimes its like we need to know what we are doing.
nothing always comes in ur way
but do u think that losing ur temper unnecessarily
will get things coming ur way?
NO!~
or like jing yong said
is the attitude jus tryin to tell me
how "stress" u are
so u can smoke?
well. im tired of giving advices
im tired in tryin to help i everyway i can
but well. if u dun apprecitae it
there's erally nothing i cna do anymore
im thorroughly disapointed
it made me looked like a fool
seriously im VERY disapointed in the chalet la
made me so pissed alright

its more like a smoking gatehrin.
go think about it.
its like bbq is not even the main stuff going on la.
yea im ultra tired la
have to run around like mad.
but well. i did enjoy myself too yea.
those food... =D wahhahahaz

anyway. losta peeps come lar.
kinda catch up session lol.
well at least pple are chattin jokin n eating
looks like having fun
at least the bbq's not a letdown la
yeap. daphne came... long time nv see her
then there comes peiling
so happy for u ar.. patch with ur bf le =))

still alot pple la.. including all the OL's
but now my hand hurts
i've got so many scars
jsu to prepare the food. argh!
looks like culinary's not my cup of tea yea
lol.

there is something in the way, you look at me
i really still feel it.
but i asked myself.
what can i do ?
haiz.ultra sad now. =(

i`ve made a wish ;
8:44 AM

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
to be like me

this song.

i`ve made a wish ;
9:56 AM

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