just reached home from work.
started at 10. ended at 11.
i acheived a sore arch
it stood with me for the whole day
its killing me.
spent my break time doing logbook
im still not anywhere near the end
walked around the mall during 2nd break
was walking to watsons.
but suddenly i lost my balance
almost cmpletely
thank god i held to the rail.
its the dizziness again.
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i so fed up.
i feel so worse.
i feel like giving up everything.
even myself.
im just a burden
jus a pest.
get on with ur work.
its more important.
i nvr felt so stressed before.
nvr.
fuck it.
no one will understand.
i`ve made a wish ;
12:02 AM
just reached home.
went to simpsoned with dan, his gf, kyle, his gf and alden
well quite a hilariuos show.
guys its worthwatching, defintiely.
anyway. had dinner aft that.
kinda cool.
sat round one table and ate and chat
had fun.
why am i emo'in here now?
why do i always feel the way i shouldnt?
ultimately, i am disappointed
i know its not ur fault
but im still disappointed
whats got into me?
somemore, my vision was blur soemtimes
and i will lose my balance
something isnt right with my body
i know it tooo welll
but i dun wanna see any doc.
perharps its just stress.
i've gt work, hmwrk, sch stuffs
so many things.. one piling on another
i really cant take it anymore
but do anyone knows?
nah.
argh
i`ve made a wish ;
12:27 AM
ok time to blog.
well this have been a busy week.
i dun even have time to blog.
what the .
alright guess wat.
nxt week i have 4 Test.
i have one presentation
one project submission
two report writing
one lab report
what the helll
how can i finish all this shit?
wah im really getting pissed man
how to be happY!!!! how to be cheerful!
but aft this week i try la ok.
haiz
im dying soon
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haiz. dears feeling so so down
tried calling her to cheer her up
but i think i failed.
haiz. i feel like a failure.
i pisseedd over the pile of work.
im sad cos i feel like a failure
and im super tired from work
i bet my lif will always be so gloomy.
argh,
what if one day i cant take everything anymore?
i`ve made a wish ;
11:15 PM
slpt thru the whole night.
din really slp well.
trying to figure so many tings out
so many questions i asked mysefl
yet i cant seem to find an ans.
i reallly don't know wat to say
jsut that im very disappointed with myself.
dun say sorry. its not even ur fault
its my bad.
i din know all the stress u were facing
not at all
i din even ask at all.
i even ranted at u.
you dunn deserve all these from me man.
why do i also make things end up this way?
hate myself.
i`ve made a wish ;
8:50 AM
ok it happened again
i feeel super lousy now.
im real sorry.
i suck ya.
im sorrry for the tears i made u shed
its all my bad.
haiz.
aaaaaargghh
if i die
if i disappear
would u be happier?
i`ve made a wish ;
11:11 PM
hmmm. well. alot happened.
was i too sensitive ?
but perharps wwhat u said was true.
i dn blame u at all
im not even angry at u
im just angrt at myself.
yea i witnessed an event of animal creulty.
i've sent email to the spca
yet they say they have no knowledge of it
n perharps pple was doing that for a good cause
well. at least they bothered to reply
and i hope the cats will be spared
haven exchanged any word since last night
nvr get to see you also
haiz. i dun knw what to do yea
i dun know how to face u..
im just been wondering abt what u said
and i feel that yea... its true
perharps u might feel i m worrying too much
but to me its a grave matter ya
dun worry ya.
i'll nvr do that again.
if you really hate me doing that.
haiz. bad mood.
im still sick
i feel my heart bleeding in silence
it hurts so much.
i`ve made a wish ;
7:48 PM
alright... i reached home just not long ago.
well. went out with my best bros.
alvin, bryan, derek and heru
alvin happy birthday yar.
i reallly had a great time..
thanks for the company ya.
the ala carte buffet was superb
the alcohol, the photos, the conversations.
haha kept remindin me of Sec sch days
alright. i drank though only one bottle
i feel abit drunk.
but i dun think i am
cos my mind still can proces thoughts very well.
well. suddenly so many emotions float into my head
as i read along,
gradually i found out that.
all along, i have been causin pain,
causin hurt
causing tears
and little happiness
i cuold have been more sensitive
those small little acts.
but i could have ensured theres nth more to all those
i belived u have read along too
and u found out alot too
but.. one thing is for sure.
its a long way back...
i took a long time to get ovr everything
i told myelf that. before i ever want to get involved in love again
i belived i have done that.
alll along, shes just a friend.
im very sure of that.
im sorry for all those pain i caused
im sorry for all those tears you cried
im sorry for all those time i made u worried
sorry for so much things
those were the past. jus memories
and right now. its the present.
i jus want you to stay right beside me.
i reallly should have considered abt ur feelings.
truly sorrry.
haiz. im real guilty now.
i`ve made a wish ;
1:19 AM
