iloveyou

2007-12-09T22:33:00.000-08:00

thanks. im totally pissed.
dun make promises you cant attend to la.
like that the fuck can
thought i can rely on you to get info
then in the end .....

get your piorities right la.
you dun wan help. just say.
i wun force.
but it get me to thinkin
what if it was that girl who asked u to help

pls la. show some respect
you still treat us aas frens anot

ok whatever la.

exams coming. good luck everyone

im sorry dear.!

2007-10-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

alrights. so many things happened
i reallly dun know where to start.
jsut back from bangkok.
has only been a few days,
and something shocking happened
my grandfather passed away
i really regretted.
i din even get to see him for the last time.
at the last day of the funeral, everyone cried
i did too.
it was such a heartbreaking scene
seeing my granny so heartbroken

i thought all these will bring the family closer
however. all the uncles n aunties
not all. but some really pissed me off.
dun show that F'ed face in front of me.
who are you? just ask urself first.
and for those who JUS CANt think
i pity u guys.
seriuosly, i lost respect for so many pple.
suddenly i feel that all along everyone's just putting an act
i sort of seen thru everyone's move
they dun place kinship on top of everything

ok well.. enough of that.
when everything was over.
my com died on me
the graphics card went haywire
i had to get a new one.

what abt sch? i guess its just the first wekk
i still can handle everything.
well many things happened lately.
conflicts? misunderstandings?
shant talk about them.

i know i shant feel this way.
i know
but, its really makes me feel abit insecure
makes me feel that im useless
i have nothing
im not capable of anything
it just make me compare myself to him
makes me feel so far away
makes me feel so small, so insignificant

i totallly lost all confidence
even for my passion
nvm.

sometimes i really hate bloggin
it makes me feel so depressed.

who will ever know ?

2007-10-17T00:10:00.000-07:00

ok guys i am alright
thanks for all the concern
appreciated

just back from bangkok trip with family.
could have said kinda enjoyable
and i bought lotsa stuffs there

wahahahx i shall upload the pics one day.

2007-10-01T00:00:00.000-07:00

haven benn blogging for months
but i reallly cant take it anymore
not any longer.

yes i ran of house last night
if not for the sake of my mum
i wouldnt even step home

stop abusing ur authority
stop telling me whats respect
i only know whats mutual respect
easy understood yea?

i've lived 18 years
n thanks. u made me felt one thing last night that i nvr felt before
you made me felt that i dun even have a place called home
18 years. congrats. you completely broke me into parts

everything will stay in my head
i wun forrget a single detail
it was that most painful night ever
i swear it was the hardest cry eveer
but fret not.

i'll step out of the house early in the morning
i'll come back only in wee hours
i'd rather stay at the void deck
i''d rather get stared by werid onlookers

home? nah
its the last place i ever wannt to go right now.

im trying very hard to stay calm
i always felt that people who try to do stupid things to themselves are dumb
but i have a change of point of view now.
this is how they relive stress
this is how they feel better

you'll definitely regret it one day

2007-08-18T00:33:00.000-07:00

went to sch at one today.
wke up at 8 to study.
things arent really in my way

lesson ended at four.
i headed straight home.
its was so frustrating n bored
i took a nap.
i spent the rest of the day like this

at 11pm. went with ck and frens
to give a surprise to qian.
anyway happy birthday yar
kinda lied to her i quarrelled with my gf to lure her hown
she was touched n stuuf la.
hope u lked it ya

at the end of the day
im back to tis emo state
yea perahrps i need not lie
cos indeed there was a fight
ive nvr felt so worse before.

would anyone know?
would anyone care?

nvm..

2007-08-15T09:56:00.000-07:00

welll down on my lck i guess
was it too much sin ive done?
perharps.

went early to ICA.
wanted to renew n extend passport
guess what... when it was my turn
the whole system of the building crashed
i was told to like come back later n stuff

haiz... wen to mahong..
lost money...
buy 4d... lost money

wah liaoz. sianz.

have to save money.

2007-08-08T11:41:00.000-07:00

hmm been a long time since i blogged
hows everyone? haha
kinda hectic life right now
all the test, exams....
sem exams are coming.
ive gotta mug. very much

din go sch today
was told to report for work at 6
had to renew my passsport
think im going abroad soon...
like finally..

welll... slpt with a headache last night
woke up feeling so empty..
wanted to renew my passport.
but couldnt find any company
perharps going alone soon.

was i impatetient,
or was it i waited too long
forget it. i'd rather depend on myself.

so long.

2007-07-29T00:02:00.000-07:00

just reached home from work.
started at 10. ended at 11.
i acheived a sore arch
it stood with me for the whole day
its killing me.

spent my break time doing logbook
im still not anywhere near the end

walked around the mall during 2nd break
was walking to watsons.
but suddenly i lost my balance
almost cmpletely
thank god i held to the rail.
its the dizziness again.
'
i so fed up.
i feel so worse.
i feel like giving up everything.
even myself.

im just a burden
jus a pest.
get on with ur work.
its more important.

i nvr felt so stressed before.
nvr.

fuck it.
no one will understand.

2007-07-28T00:27:00.000-07:00

just reached home.
went to simpsoned with dan, his gf, kyle, his gf and alden
well quite a hilariuos show.
guys its worthwatching, defintiely.

anyway. had dinner aft that.
kinda cool.
sat round one table and ate and chat

had fun.

why am i emo'in here now?
why do i always feel the way i shouldnt?
ultimately, i am disappointed
i know its not ur fault
but im still disappointed
whats got into me?

somemore, my vision was blur soemtimes
and i will lose my balance
something isnt right with my body
i know it tooo welll
but i dun wanna see any doc.

perharps its just stress.
i've gt work, hmwrk, sch stuffs
so many things.. one piling on another

i really cant take it anymore
but do anyone knows?

nah.
argh

2007-07-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

ok time to blog.
well this have been a busy week.
i dun even have time to blog.
what the .
alright guess wat.
nxt week i have 4 Test.
i have one presentation
one project submission
two report writing
one lab report

what the helll
how can i finish all this shit?
wah im really getting pissed man

how to be happY!!!! how to be cheerful!

but aft this week i try la ok.

haiz
im dying soon

any pls support this guys
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if inerested can etll me
i can help u get cheaper
lol.

haiz. dears feeling so so down
tried calling her to cheer her up
but i think i failed.
haiz. i feel like a failure.

i pisseedd over the pile of work.
im sad cos i feel like a failure
and im super tired from work

i bet my lif will always be so gloomy.
argh,

what if one day i cant take everything anymore?

2007-07-14T08:50:00.000-07:00

slpt thru the whole night.
din really slp well.
trying to figure so many tings out
so many questions i asked mysefl
yet i cant seem to find an ans.

i reallly don't know wat to say
jsut that im very disappointed with myself.
dun say sorry. its not even ur fault
its my bad.
i din know all the stress u were facing
not at all
i din even ask at all.
i even ranted at u.
you dunn deserve all these from me man.

why do i also make things end up this way?
hate myself.

2007-07-13T23:11:00.000-07:00

ok it happened again
i feeel super lousy now.
im real sorry.
i suck ya.
im sorrry for the tears i made u shed
its all my bad.
haiz.
aaaaaargghh

if i die
if i disappear
would u be happier?

2007-07-10T19:48:00.000-07:00

hmmm. well. alot happened.
was i too sensitive ?
but perharps wwhat u said was true.
i dn blame u at all
im not even angry at u
im just angrt at myself.

yea i witnessed an event of animal creulty.
i've sent email to the spca
yet they say they have no knowledge of it
n perharps pple was doing that for a good cause
well. at least they bothered to reply
and i hope the cats will be spared

haven exchanged any word since last night
nvr get to see you also
haiz. i dun knw what to do yea
i dun know how to face u..
im just been wondering abt what u said
and i feel that yea... its true
perharps u might feel i m worrying too much
but to me its a grave matter ya
dun worry ya.
i'll nvr do that again.
if you really hate me doing that.

haiz. bad mood.
im still sick

i feel my heart bleeding in silence
it hurts so much.

2007-07-04T01:19:00.000-07:00

alright... i reached home just not long ago.
well. went out with my best bros.
alvin, bryan, derek and heru
alvin happy birthday yar.
i reallly had a great time..
thanks for the company ya.
the ala carte buffet was superb
the alcohol, the photos, the conversations.
haha kept remindin me of Sec sch days

alright. i drank though only one bottle
i feel abit drunk.
but i dun think i am
cos my mind still can proces thoughts very well.
well. suddenly so many emotions float into my head
as i read along,
gradually i found out that.
all along, i have been causin pain,
causin hurt
causing tears
and little happiness
i cuold have been more sensitive
those small little acts.
but i could have ensured theres nth more to all those
i belived u have read along too
and u found out alot too
but.. one thing is for sure.
its a long way back...
i took a long time to get ovr everything
i told myelf that. before i ever want to get involved in love again
i belived i have done that.
alll along, shes just a friend.
im very sure of that.

im sorry for all those pain i caused
im sorry for all those tears you cried
im sorry for all those time i made u worried
sorry for so much things

those were the past. jus memories
and right now. its the present.
i jus want you to stay right beside me.

i reallly should have considered abt ur feelings.
truly sorrry.

haiz. im real guilty now.

2007-06-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

alright its been allmost on month
since i really last blogged
nothing much happened i guess...
just the same routine life
sch had once started again
and the results are not what i wanted
have i reallly gave my best ?

haiz. somehow i feel so sick
was so sleeepy and having a headache earlier.
nvm...
got to do my pct logbook.
take care everyone,

2007-05-30T18:42:00.000-07:00

alright. im super sick now. very.
i have severe running nose, cough
and fever is developing i think
the feeling is unbearable, intolerable.
haiz. term test coming
and im sick at this momment

slpt at 10 plus last night
woke up at 9 plus.
well.. been so long since i slpt so long
but hen i woke up
my head's spinning like mad
actually din wantt to turn up for lesson
but i still did
anw got back my tests
aimm 17.5/20 pct 16/20

went home. slp again
anyway i think i aint gonna work tml.
m super sick man
hate this.

2007-05-21T22:31:00.000-07:00

ok gotta blog before i rush and complete my stuffs
i cant seem to falll aslp last night
i woke up in the middle of the night
this seldom happen to me
perharps thats whyi seem so lethargic today

sch was okae. managed to stay awake for biochem
next week will be a busy week man
lotsa quizzes and test.
n my work's still piling.
my presentation is on thrus
but i've yet to do a ssingle thing

sent dear hme today
can see she asnt in her usual self
hey i know theres so much to do
so much to study
so much stress.
catch a breather alright.
n im reallly guilty.
i alawys made u go home late
and thats prob the reason why u are so tired during lec
hmm perharps i shouldnt ask u out too often yet.
kinda suck yea. i couldnt spend my wkends with u
spending wkdays isnt a good idea too.
sorry yea. dun feel bad kae.
im jus groaning.

haiz. nvm.

2007-05-20T00:21:00.000-07:00

so finally im back here.
did anyone miss me.
alright what should i say?
life's reallly damn busy.
i find it hard to even catch up

work's piling and piling up.
be it school work. be it my own work.
things arent going welll.
all my goals seemed so far away
seemed as though i might nv reach them
less than a term. i flunk 2 graded test
i flunked them like shit.

at work... i had to force myself to smile
come on i know i have to
but there are point of time
where i reallly lose my temper.
and i cant imagine really.
what will happen if i get too rash
and hit someone.
arggh

then there are so many pple in this society
theres the rich acting proud
theres the poor acting proud
why cant everyone just be humble?
perharps it starts to make sense
why the earth's dying?
maybe she wants to get rid of everyone
because everyone has bcome a monster

nah. my mood just aint good.
not at all.
i feel shit.
very indeed.
haiz

2007-05-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

im sorry/
sorry for being a loser.
i suck

2007-05-09T23:25:00.000-07:00

the smirk face.
those sour words
just whats wrong with u ?
you call this frenship?
nah. i dun think so ya
yea tolerate, brush everything off with a smile
fine i'll do that
but tolerance has its limit

yeap sweetheart! im sorry yea
thansk for everything
thanks for telling me how u feel ya
sorry once again.

ok works kinda piling up now.
sch work. RSh work. evrythin
im tired of juggling things
i really need a breather man
i feel so cooped up.

7 days a week
i study 5 days, i work 2 days
i worry abt my sch work
i worry abt my everything
aiya. nvm nvm.
lets drop alll this shit.

i need to go for a run. badly.
only then i can feel the wind
make myself pant.
make myself tired
so i wun think.

ok i must finsh biocehm tut today

2007-05-08T13:42:00.000-07:00

haiz. now its brealy 2 pm.
and im already home
kinda like wasting a day away
tues n thus are supposed to be my free day
whereby i can go out n have fun
but im jus sitting here n wastin it away

everyone seemed to have activities aft class
and im the one heading home.
wtf. feelin a lil pissed right now

some words are better left unsaid.
some qns are better let uknown

haiz. no one uds me.
nah not even myself..

rotting off.

2007-05-05T09:36:00.000-07:00

alright seems like i haven been blogging.
sch's startin and i mean
reallly startin
cos fers 2 weeks are shit.
lousy timetable.

anw quizzes are coming out nex week
and i shalll score
cos i will nv forget
how the CA pulled my grade down

jus reached home from work.
my eyes are feelin so dry
my whole body's aching
how i wish i can get a massage now man.
im feelin so darn lazy now.......

haiz. things i dun wanna hear
or rather i choose not to hear
listen. im not even affected.
not the least
but u know what
you aint got any right to commment
so.scram. run. get lost.
i dn think u wanna be an enemy of mine
pls think
unless u dun have brains at all.

2007-05-02T23:12:00.000-07:00

wah.. jus chekced blackboard
and noticed i've got 4 hr break tml again
i dun care , i think i going home fers

ok i only had two lectures today.
like what the hell lar
the timetable rally very weird man

ok acc swtheart to tm aft class
but we ended up watching spiderman3
awesome show.
thanks for the company okae
thanks for the dinnnner too.

haha. yeap. i really love u.

haiz i jus saw the news
they say something abt the gloabl warmin again
they say thailand's water will rise and stuff
haiz. im really startin to get worried
well.. not only concerned abt environment
but ultimately im concerned abt myself
i mean. things are going so well for me right now
i might not have every single thing i want
but i've got u.
and its already a perfect life
so dear earth. you've continue to spin.
cos our story's still unfolding.

haha may sound crap.
but its not!

ok im tired already.
nights

2007-05-01T09:43:00.000-07:00

wahhh jus woke up.
i think i kind of sprained my back while slpin
cool huh? but pain sia.

wah jus checked my timetable for tml
its quite sucky.
omg how arhhh...

anyway love came my house to have dinner ytd.
and aft which i showed her her gift
haha. sorry i spoilt the surprse
but im reallly glad you liked it.

ok gotta prepare for work.
super lazy.

=(

2007-04-29T00:40:00.000-07:00

ok. i so very dun lke the life now.
i jus dun know why
at the end of the day
i cant seem to go slp with an empty mind
there's sure things that are there
inside my head.
makes me wonder.
pains my heart

welll first. i forgot i coudnt take beef at home
and i brought a swisss mush burger home
in the end i threw it away

i dun know..i just felt kinda lost
my world reallly seemed so empty now.
maybe u can call this loneliness man
when i wake up,
its either eevryone's still aslp.
i dun even get to exchange a few words
with my mum n dad

when i got home.
its always home alone.
a cold dark apartment.
and when my parents cme home
i'll be aslp.

seriuosly i reallly feel lonely at times.
i dun know why.
but i really mss the feeling of being cared
being concerned
slowly, i think i'll lose this feeling.

nah. i shouldnt think in this way.
i know i shouldnt
but guess what.
its heart over mind now.
in fact.
i feel kinda down now.

nothing feels right
cos nth ever goes right for me.
thats what im feeling right now. =(

and to swtheart
im sorry i dun know how to cheer u up kae.
im a bad consoler.
im not good with words.
but cheer up anyway alright.
=) would loved to see ur smile

alright. peace out.

2007-04-25T23:34:00.000-07:00

alright. frist week of sch.
super slack.
i only had 2 lectures today

aft that supposed to send swtheart home
but ended up in bugis with her family.
so walked around n shopped
thanks kae. i enjoyed ur company.

reached home. dined. n i fell aslp.
all the way till ten.
when i woke up only sis was at home

sillly. cheer up ok.
its not ur fault.
im sure things will be fine sooon
anytimeu need someone to talk to or what
i will be here ok.

alrigh. goottta read immunlogy tb soon
and i think i jus now kinda twosted my knee
and i walk n its painful.
ahhh aiya sian!
stupid.
=(

2007-04-24T22:37:00.000-07:00

ohhh sch has started!
well... i think things are not that bad lar
i still can sit with myres during lecture
jus that my tut class... abit quiet ehhh
some dun really seem friendly.
but i think it shall be ok as time go pass

guessed what. todays 2 mth anni
thanks for spendng the day with me kae
i had a wonderful time..
wonderful movie. 200 pounds beauty
wonderful meal. fish n co
wonderful gift. my chest of love

thanks for the effort ok.
those lil wordings
those lil stickers
all those effort are reallly appreciated.
thanks for everything

aiya. my com now like got virus
i onl manged to print some notes.
guess i'lll have to do my research for article tml.
and tml's an early early day

mum told me about grandpa
yea i think this weeekend gotta go visit him
hmmm yeap.

trust me.
it will sustain
forever.

2007-04-21T23:21:00.000-07:00

alright. i need someone to talk to
i dun know why.
but im feeling so pisssed
so frustrated.
so angered
ni really feel sick
i couldnt breathe
im sinking.

first. abt work.
im real sick of workin
im real tired.
im pissed by those silly attitudes
im pissed by those stares
but i really dun know what i should do

nxt family.
things arent really going on very well here
in fact. its not good at all
i shoulnt say tooo much
furthermore. i rarely get to see ervyone now
and when i reach home from wrk
its always home alone

sudddenly i really feel so lonely.
n i really feell so lost.
lost among the thoughts

did i lose my temper yet again ?
im sorrry...
but i hated the way we talked.
it made us feel so distanced
or did it really happen ?

alright i shall end all these crapz
you know what
i shall jus eat n slp

sch's startiin.
im really beginning to fear.

whatver.
why does it always feel so shittty when u are feeling down
and its always at this point of time where u always feel theres no one who will sit down n listen.
haiz.

i feel bettter off dead

2007-04-19T23:04:00.000-07:00

ok backed form orientation camp today.
was posted to be a station master.
what can i say. it was damn cool la.
you get to make the freshies cheer..
you get to see them play...
though it was tiring.
but i did enjoyed myself...

worked myself out.
i slpt almost the whole day away today.
now im feeling slppy again =(
anw timetable's out.
haiz. dun wish to commment on it.

ohh hey kellly. long time no see
how you doing le ?
take care okae...
sch's starting for me liao. =( haha

alright. slp slp slp.

n myres.! we are separated. damn!

2007-04-15T23:06:00.000-07:00

ok woke up very early today.

went to pay respect to grandma

met up with aunties n cousins.

those two little ones went along too =)

and they told me the balllons spoilt. lol.

kinda spent some time there

it was pretty crowded too.

aft that made our way home.

ate... bathed... n i slpt again

gosh think i slpt alot these few days.

and i din have proper meals too.

the brothers. lol.

ok bosss jus called me
told me that im workin till 3 tml
workin on tues, fri,sat and sun.
how crazy.
seriuosly im really thinkin of quttting.

yeap.

thousand apologies for u.
imsorry

2007-04-15T08:32:00.000-07:00

jus what is wrong with me.
how many stacks n boxes of shoes i've kicked
n made them fall?

seriuosly im getttin ssick of this job.
u have to bear with pple's attitude
u have to stand all day
you must swalllow ur pride
you must smile . smile . smile
even though you are jus feeling so down

i feel that i cant breathe all of a sudden
there's jus something pressing down against me.

eat.slp.work.
thats my new routine i guess

alright. no work today finallly.
but means no plans for the day as well

rotting off.

2007-04-14T00:09:00.000-07:00

i badly neeed a new blogskin.
can someone be kind enough to help me ?
hmmm ok. i shant let history repeat
shant let my emtions rule over mind
i should control how i feel
not let how i feel control me.
i've got to be understadning
i cant lose my cool at this point of time

im sorry yea. i shouldnt feel that way
i dint want either
haiz. i dun know lar..

i dn even understand myselft
how cn i expect others to uds me?

yea. contradict.
jus slp.

2007-04-12T23:43:00.000-07:00

haiz.... its driving me nuts
i actually spent the day slpin awaay
not my usual behaviuor yea

im reallly misssing you lots.
can see you for barely one hour
n i dun even know when i can see u next
yes. i very much wanted to chat with u
but i know u are busy.

hmm. nah im jus listening to tooo much sad songs
it made my moood wen blue too
haiz... ok. i drank 40% vodka.
now i tell u.
im seriuosly drunk.
wah..

maybe i shall jus go slp again. =(

2007-04-11T10:02:00.000-07:00

ahhh think i had too much beer last night
now i abit headache like that
alright the funtion last night was super grand
it was my company's dinner and dance.
everyone looked smart in their wear
n i took pictures here n there
shalll upload them next time

well i would say the event was satisfying
there were games, awards, foood, beeer
haha and alex n i weer jus screenin the balllroom for babes
lol thats so what lar...

alright. cabbbed home aft the whole event.
kinda looking forward to next year's one.
and it'll be so nice if they allow us to bring frens over
so i'll defnitely bring my sweetheart there
lol. and oh yar. one guy actuallly propsed to her gf on stage
thats like omg. such a surprise
n he still won a plasma tv.

going for mahjong now
n i have to work at 6
hope i wun be relase too late
so i might pick stheart home.
hey i reallly misssed u man
god. haiz. anyway tonight u can slp
on ur comfy bed le
u deserve all the rest yea

alright. so long =)

2007-04-08T00:13:00.000-07:00

calm after the storm.
no. its a storm aft one.

firstly. to sweet heart.
i sincerely apologise.
its all my bad.
i wun allow it to happen again yea.

i hate men who make women cry
i swear to myself i'll nv make girl cry
even if thats not possible. i'll try my best
if u wanna talk abt respect
pls. my respect for u is wearin thin
my patience is wearing thin
call that my bad temper.
i cant jus sit down there n do nothing

did someting clot in ur brain?
why cant u process ur thoughts properly?
or u need something to hapen until u really wake up
until the day then u will feel super remorseful
pls. dun try me
i can do anything
im aint kidding
so many thughts jus ran into my mind
i can do lots of crazy things
till then. ur remorse will be too late

n thanks for listenin to me
though i din speak
thanks for being there.
dun be silly abt not consoling me.
i jus need u there
though not by my side.
but thanks. i could have felt u are right beside.
love ya.

im sorry, i can't be perfect

even heroes have the right to bleed

2007-04-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

jus woke up form a long long slp.
sis bday ytd. spent the whole day at the chalet.
helped to decorate, cooked and stuufff
thanks for being there and helped me out kae
it had been a busy day for u.

well it was fun. many pple came
my cousins, aunties. uncles
my grandmother my frens
n yea now everyone knows u already lol.

nv reallly ate much.
went around to entertain ppeeps.
esp the kids yea. lucky we got balloons.
n oh yar i burnt myself
n the scar's damn ugly.

the stars, the mooon the sea.
and you by my side
n yes. that was the prettiest sunrise.

spent the night at the chalet.
unti the nex morning.
actallly decided to movie
but ended up going home
deicided to perharps meet up.
but it was cancellled too.

seriously, i know i have to be understadning.
but yet. i reallly cant help by feelin disappointed
cos we like cant see each other till when sch starts
nah i so very dun like this feeling.
neither can i play the goood guy
neither can i be he bad guy
so what the hell am i supposed to do.
yea slp. i slpt my whole day away today.

haiz.. someone tell me what to do can.
im feeling so arggghhh.
nvm. i guesss i should jus keeep everythign to myself
swalllow everything down.
and things might get bettter.

you nvr knew.

2007-04-05T01:06:00.000-07:00

finallly work ended.
i was super pisssed during work today
wait. so was it my fault?
both of u are in charge.
but both gave diff orders
so who am i suppposed to listen to.
one say sell. one say no.
so? what am i suppose to do?

and whatever man. show respect.
if u aint got that.
dun ever tink i'll respect u.
it wasnt my fault.
but why are u tellin me off in front of the customer.
damn it man.

now as i reflect.
what shhould i say abt working life.
well i made real nice frens
i met real nice pple.
n i learnt one thing.
no mattter what happen when u are out there
tolerance is the key.
you musnt lose ur coool
i guessed thats why reallly kept me going until today
else i'll left long ago.

well sis bday now.
happy birthday yea.
wanted to hand her her present.
but she aint at home.
well i hope tml will be a nice day. =)

lets hope i wueb sleepy tml

2007-04-03T00:07:00.000-07:00

hmmm. woke up at 7 today.
met daniel for a run again.
ahhh if he hadnt pushed me on
i think i wun finish the run. lol.

aft that met sweetheart.
went to pay respect to her grandfather
then we went to lunch.
before we went bowling.
ended up dining at 85 =)

super tired.
leg muscle tear
shoulder joint still hurts
hand muscle ache.

=(

sometimes i tot we can at least exchange few more words
but sometiems it jus seems u are pushin me away.
nvm ar.perharps maybe i go slp
it'll be bettter

nvm nahhhh nothing.. all stupid thoughts
no one gets bothereed anyway.
nights to all.

ultra tired mind.

2007-04-02T22:49:00.000-07:00

alright. tooothache! ah!
damn it made me waste my buffet dinnner

ok yong came my house in morning.
passed me the blazer. but wasnt what i wanted
thanks anyway lar.
so we went parkway to pool....
then i bought my blazer. 65$ quite cheap la
gosh my money's running low man,
i must scrimp like helll sooon

busssed down to MS aft that
watch TMNT!
imagine two guys watch this show
like omg lar. lol.
but well. a show on brotherhood
worth catching ar
but im still loookin forward to sunshine!

walked around ms. suntec. to raffles. to bugis
and we settled for steamboat buffet
halfway thru my toothache attacked again =(

ahh damn. my shoulder still hurts.
think im getting old liao.
anw hav to go for my run tml again
hope it'll be a good weather.

n lastly. i really looking forward to sis bday
and last but not least. the RSH annual dnd.
man both are the highlights.
i hope it'll be real fun.

1) no more restaurants this month
2) no more splurging on clothes

ahhh how to survive like that.... lol.
anw feel kinda down.
wonder why. ? jus feeling kinda blue.
idiot. argh.

2007-04-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh her last day of camp. finallly.
yea last day of 3 working days.
ytd took part in the super sports team thing
oragnised by rsh
i reppresented thomson la.
and they got into semi finals
they ssay they need me again
n i hope they give me their prize
wahhahaa!

ok i wonder how i sprained my shoulder
ok lar not as in sprain
but the pain has been coming n going often
think i hurt in in bbballl last time.

okok. nothing more to write =( take care yea.
rest welll when u reach home today!

2007-03-31T00:03:00.000-07:00

jus back from work. super tired
cos im missing someone whole day
ok ytd went to parkway
poooled... ate katong laksa
and then it rained.

so we shopped at pp.
n love bought her shoes.
haha. then we went to k box
then there was this auntie ar
nvm im tooo lazy to comment on her.

aft that we da pao foood and ate at east coast
kinda pouredd out hearts out.
i've told her every single thing.
and i seriuosly meant what i say.

hmm now you leave for camp le
im so worried bought u n missing you.
haiyo. how to survive...

lol. nvrthe less. enjoy urself kae =)

2007-03-28T23:29:00.000-07:00

okkkk! just reached home! home sweeet home.
alright, met "xiao qin" this morning
paasssed her the sandal then we went gulab
bought sandal for my mum then brought home
sorry arhh made u travel round n round.
yeap. then we went tamp for seoul garden
then to collect my sis bday gift
im quite impressed though
ahhhh yong forgot to lend me the blazer.
omg.

ok.. then we busssed to vivo.
watch beanny bean, farnie ahh
enjoyed the show.
actuallly we deicded to go mount faber
but it was super dark spoooky
plus. i dun really know the way there
so we busssed to eat beancurd
before we went home.

im kinda tired right now le.
tml still have to jog at 8
but its another fun-packed day i hope.

hold on to my arms.
and i'll hold on to yours =)

2007-03-27T09:09:00.000-07:00

alright i wonder why i was super tired! lol
woke up at 630 ytd
went to acc my love to sch.
and it rained heavily halfway.
dun worry alright
it wasnt any trouble.
not at all.

worked the rest of the day away
at RSH gulab. stupid la
the customers i think les than 50 pple
n i arranged all the shoes in the shop
u can see how bored i am yea ?

reached home. ate n watched tv
n i slpt on te sofa.
so i went to bath at 9 plus.
and slpt till this morning
wahhhh still feel like slpin now. =(

sometimes silly thoughts jus enter my mind
soemtimes i jus get worried over nothing
im worried in fact,
what if one day you get sick of me
what if one day you choose to leave me
ahhh i think im jus crazy
i hope all these will nv happen
thats why whenever i say i love u
i want u to know.
i mean it. n i really do treasure u.

alright. time to wash up and get to work .
hmmm.

2007-03-26T00:28:00.000-07:00

wooo i didnt blogeed for so long.
welll. i was super duper tired these few days
but i reallly enjoyed myself.
alright. 24 march. happpy one month my love =)
haha sorry i couldnt spend the day with u
sorry i din know what to get for u.
but i hope you likd it yea.
n dun worry. its nv tediuos at all =)

girl. you've reallly melt my heart.
i meant all those words in the card.
every single word.

ok. consecutive work for 4 days =(
super bored. whats more?
im sent to macperson gulab
what the helll lor.... aiya
whatever la. jus work bah

n hey. its reallly tought on u for that job
woundt want to to tire urself so badly again yea
ok cant wait to get to see u tml =)

loves.

2007-03-22T01:01:00.000-07:00

woke with with muscle aches all over.
must be becos of the jog.
alright met with peeps at bt nooon
majonged all the way

in the end i think i won +- 45
but they nv brought cash.
hahaha...

came home...
i dun know why
i messs things up.
now im feeeling so argh.

aiya. dun know lar..
haiz.

2007-03-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

what a day~
ok i wke up at 7am
met daniel at bedok reservoir.
we conquered the whole round non-stop.
ended it in less than half hour =)

went home aft that...
found out she's not feeelin welll
so i busssed down n ac her to sch.
but. i was caught in that stupid traffic light.
wasted whole lot of my time. lol

ok walked around sch.
like i nv toured around before.
bfore she met her fren
n off i went home.
n ohh yar. i was late for work!
late for 15 minutes
but no one scolded me so who cares =X

alright.. worked like mad.
was told i could knock off at 6.
but guess what.
i worked until 12 midnight la

yong n his god brother dropped by
n i was lured to dine with them
at soup restarant
so... 20+ bucks flew off jus like that
wonderful meal though
before i went back to slog my guts out

ok. i m dead beat.
i think i neeed many many hours of slp
n tml i think im free!
maybe can mahjong liao
so long nv play =)

n derek sorry arhhh i was worin jus now
i willl suppport u de
must get the trophy for my sake. lol

and for you =)
thanks for everything
ur company
ur eppendorf tube
ur sweet msg filled with concern
thanks. if not for u
i wuoldnt know how i'll smile today.
=)

2007-03-20T01:39:00.000-07:00

okok.... finally i have a action packed week
mon- work tues -work
wed- maybe shusi with qian
thrus n fri- all for u

yeap tml have to wake at 7
join daniel for run at reservoir
then i need to report to suntec at 1
stock take.

ahhh anw. my darling came to acc me for lunch today
thanks ok! haha reallly appreciate it.
love ya =)

okok... goota go slp soon
qian. cheer up la.
i know diff but try k

i want to stay khimmified!

2007-03-19T09:47:00.000-07:00

alright. three days snice i blogged!
going to start my thrid consecutive workin day
but nvm la.
i've expereinced 7 consecutive
ahhh but im abit lazy la.

welll work was alright. normal.
but i wonder why i couldnt get to slp at night
turning in bed from 3+ to 5+
ahhh until i drank a mouthful of water
then i fell aslp once more. lol.

yea sis bday cming soon.
i've really gotta get the rpesent ready
so.... the one who's supposed to ask me out
you better do arhhh LOL

and i am craving for mahjong
im craving for shusi!

ahhh gooottta go get ready for work.
so long.

and for you.
you have so many job tranings.
hope you enjoy them kae.
and pls drink more water ahh.
=)

2007-03-17T09:49:00.000-07:00

ohhh was very tired last night
so i din blog =(
alright met my darling early in the morning
went to east coast marine bowl.
haha. had a great time
n well. i think u played rather well lar.

went over to plaza sing
to watch our movie. im a cyborg
funny storyline. but hilariuos right
aft that we walked around...
ohh went to the desert shop ck brought me
ate honeydew n mango sago =)
quite nice lar.

aft that i went to her grndma hosue for steamboat
haha abit weird. but it was a fabulous dinnner
reallly. n ur cousins are so farnie.lol.
so dun blame urself for not entertaining or what ok...

haiz i wonder what got into me last night
i was so emo lar.
maybe thats why i replied this way
thats why i reacted this way
im so sorry yea.
haiz.

2007-03-15T23:52:00.000-07:00

alright. 2nd post of the day again
went to giant at IKEA with mum today
with my cousin n aunt.
ohh its my cousin's bday!
ohh yar the giant was big lar.
and yea... saw pineapples there
coudnt help but laugh wahhaha!

ok met up with hong wee. qian n ck
trained down to bugis.
walked around bought ck his present
300+ mp3 sony player.
we are so generous right?
but he paid half la. wahhahaah
then jac n jesssie came along
and we ate steamboat.
alright so crapppy la we.
but its fun! guys lets meet up again ok?
sorry if i was abit tired today =)
happy bday ck!

The reason you never cross my mind
is because you're always on my mind.

The reason why I don't like you
is because I love you.

The reason I don't want you
is because I need you.

The reason I wouldn't cry if you left
is because I would die if you left.

The reason I wouldn't live for you
is because I would die for you.

The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you
is because I would do everything for you.

The reason I chose my life
is because YOU ARE MY LIFE.

came across this. sweet huh?
this is for u =)

2007-03-15T10:15:00.000-07:00

ok jus woke up.
dun know why arhhh couldnt slp.
i rmb i was turning in bed during 4 plus
and even went up to get a drink

alright now i rmb. in the bus ride home ytd
there was this bunch of "kids"
i mean pls lar. even if u are racist
show respect. they are still pple right
gosh they really humiliated pple
n if i was those indians i think i might jus hit them
this taught me a lesson
i'll nvr want to be a raccist.

april's coming. sis bday! her present! how ?
and my dinner n dance for RSh
what to wear ? aiyayaya!

ohh jus found out u are injured during the cycling
im so sorry leh. omg. hope its not serious ar
n i think nex time u dun dare to sit liao
whahaha!!okk..

ok i've set a targt for myself
next two sem. i have to hit 2 X 3.5
i wanna get at least a 3.3 by the end of 2nd year
this time round i must work hard
its my future.
no more complacency.
jus pure hardwork =)

3.3 here i come!
anyway.... my savings runnning very low.
die liao... gonnna be broke soon!!!! ahh!

2007-03-14T23:06:00.000-07:00

alright.. 2nd post for the day.
results oh results.
shalll i be happy over it ?
welll. thank god u are there with me
for the rest of the day
u reallly made me smile n forgot abt them
no worries abt results
i missed my 3.
im disappointed... reallly....
but im to blame.
i dint give enough effort
i promise. i'll hit that 3.
aint empty promise. i'll try.

anyway congrats! you really did well!
and thanks for the whole day
i think we had lotsa smiles man.
so funnny. ! lol.
and sorry yea. my cycling skillls not good yet
but nvm we shall ride again! lol.

alrght alrht.. losss for words now.
had a great day. super tired now.

meet the mothers day?
so funnny. lol

2007-03-14T09:33:00.000-07:00

ok had a bad start for the day
i woke up. feeling i cant breathe.
or rather... i had this dream
i feel as though someone was strangling me
and when i woke up in shock
i reallly almost coudlnt breathe
ohh gosh.

nvm. couldnt take my mind off the results thing
hope it comes at a time when
i'll be sitting down n relaxing.

ohh hey i guess i have to say sorry yea
so many tings you are going thru
yet i dint even know abt it.
yeap... jsu wanna say even though im not there for u
but by any chance u need me.
i'll alwys be right here.
meanwhile. smile alright? =)
yeap. see our results together =)

2007-03-14T00:53:00.000-07:00

alright. back from class bbq.
gosh i think i ate quite alot
went to derek house this morning.
he wanted to mahjong.
so played with roy n nat n him
won 12+ bucks... whhaah

alright last AF12 outing.
kinda sad lar. we wun be a class
but even sadder my cliques like breaking up
ahhh the emo part coming back again
alll the lame jokes we shared
alll those times...
man. i'll sure be missing them.

anw. now theres a haze or something
and my left eye hurts alot
wonder if its gotta do with the haze
looking forward to tml's outing =)

hey. i know theres alot of things on ur hand
but ahhh.. even thoug u have to to very busy
must take care alright.
woundnt want you to overtire urself =)

nvr be replced

2007-03-12T17:30:00.000-07:00

guesssed i'll be home late today

so think i'll blog now.

alright 530 pm now

jus backed home from queensway

and back from my haircut.

wasnt that back.

my hair looks abit weird right now

n my shoe.. argghhh my puma clyde series

why woundt u appear there

got myself a nike.

at a cheap cheap 70 bucks haha

alright gonna meet kelly n yong soon

too bad peilin n lek cant make it

nex time dudes. LOl

tml's af12 last outing.

last bbq.

i hope everyone's turining up

kinda missed u guys. =)

and to the myres.

hope tml we can crap whole nigth away

haha! miss u guys lots la.

and lekka boi. holidays already right

wait tilll winata free then ask bra n mushroom

then all go out together lar.

i dun like to organise.

so i'll leave it to you okaE?

my new shoe =)

ohh congrats having made it into the camps

hope you'lll enjoy it =)

2007-03-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

wahhh work today was so so tiring.
esp my heel. my leg was quite painful

hmm my hair is in a mess
i think i really need a haricut soon
hairs killing me.

thank god i needn't have to work
until the next weekend.

wah super tired now
i think i need to slp liao
wahhh din even talk to u to one whoel day le
i misss you alot alot liao
when are we meetin huh?
hmm.....

ok lar. nights.

garyology? haha.!

2007-03-11T00:02:00.000-08:00

wooosh whole day of work?
of cos i shall not elaborate
anw my laps feels so sour.
esp when i squuat. lol.
hope it gets better tml =)
anw i was realsed as i exceeded my hours
else i have to stay til midnight.

ate.
bathed.
now then i realised nth left for me to do.
think i go slp liao =(

hope u dun stay up too late helpin ur mum ahhh
i miss you liao . =(

2007-03-09T11:02:00.000-08:00

alright i jus woke up lol.

had a super long sleep.

and i think i slpt very welll.

thanks for the very wonderful day yea =)

alirght ytd trained down to jurong

was supposed to ice skate

but. both of us backed out

aft seeing those pros on the ice.

so we ended up in k box. lol.

so farnie. LOL

alright. aft that we trained to vivo

wanted to catch jus follow law.

but found out the timing wasnt right.

so we bought ticks at MS and trained there

nice show lar. very hilariuos. lol.

walked around esplande aft that. toook some pics.

nice eh? of cos. im in the pic. hahaha
aft that we travelled to bedok simpang to eat
sper full man.

went home aft that. =)
thanks for everything.

oh ya i have some funnny funny photos
but i'll not post them here
LOL!!!!

2007-03-08T08:42:00.000-08:00

hey dun be silly allright
no matter what you'lll always be the one
jus that i dun wan u to worry for me
thats why i perharps chose to kept in inside me
i think i have to say sorry yea
ifi have made u worried.
im really sorry if i made u think this way
but i promise u no matter what
if i have any prob i'll tell u alright

lets be there for each other yea..
alright... gooottta go get rdy to meeet u
hope we'll have a nice day!

love ya =)

2007-03-07T09:59:00.000-08:00

hmmm well i dun know what happen to me
im trying so hard to stay happy
but then at the end of the day
i couldnt remain happy.
or rather. i hate tryin
i wan to be happy.
not tryin to be happpy.
argh damn. dun think anyone will uds

found myself turining in bed last night
i think i only managed to slp at 2 plus
im thinkin of so many things know
but then. are they things
that only i care?
cos no one else seems to worry

i reallly felt like going for a run now
no. not for exercising
i wish i could tire myself out
so i could jus fall into a deep slp
or rather if i fainted during my run
that might be bettter

n hey cheer up yea
at least you ca r ed for them as a sis
im sure they'll knw.

save me.
before i fall into the land of darkness
haizzzz

2007-03-07T00:29:00.000-08:00

alright... slacked thru the whole day today
ordered kfc delivery. lunched with sis
watched tv... thats pretty all

ohh yar. invited to go D n D rsh
theme : east meet west
what should i dresss then ?

have no idea.
hmmmm ...
am i supposed to feel this way?
=( no idea
no comments. =(

2007-03-06T00:33:00.000-08:00

helllo. am i still around?
can anyone see me?
cos i dun sesne my own presence.
god. should i even start feeling this way?
thats what i hate abt hols.
nvm. will u even uds?

i guess its my own fault.
cant blame anyone.
its my own mind. own feeling
so who the hell should even care
i shouls jus live my own life
n waste it away ya.

now i dont even know
am i worried. sad. lonely

haiz.

2007-03-05T14:35:00.000-08:00

alright. been some time since i bloggged.
well. busy busy last two days.
worked at warehouse crazy sales
i mean man , it was really crazy
shorthanded, yet crowded.
i was a lil pisssed la ok.
nvm bout work. anw im thinkin of quittin
bt i was encouraged to stay on.
i really dun know =(

anw. nearly been a week since i saw u
i misss u terrribly sia. argh! lol
nvm nvm. todays my off day
i woke up. feel so empty
as in. there was nothin for me to do at ALL
so..... i went to play bbballl alone at 12
then i came home. whipped my own lunch for me n mum
then now. im bored again
damn...

im tired. bored confused. irritated. pissed.
nvm. haiz
in other words.
i feeel so darn down!

2007-03-02T02:18:00.000-08:00

long rainy day...
acc yong down to novena
to meet his online trader.
but the deal was off
so both of us went to sing
until our throats went sore
oh yar. i sang old macdonalds had a farm in k box
so coool right?

went back to tamp to dine.
then went back home.
long n tiring day

my slpin beauty's sick.
get welll soon kae.

ohh mahjong session at 9am tml.
i hope i wun be late guys

2007-02-26T00:32:00.000-08:00

ahhhhh i feellllllll sick.
thats nt the worst thing.
worst thing is. i haven finish studyin
omg i tell u all
im gonnna die... reallly...
but.. im not gonna let it happen ! =)

well.. finally something reat happend to me
aft so so long.
thanks. u've light up my world.
n i hope i can do the same for u!

2007-02-24T01:35:00.000-08:00

hmm. why do u seem so nonchalant.
or was i expecting more.

i thought we were almost there
but. now. am i still in the picture?

hope im jus sickkkk... n thinkin too much

2007-02-24T00:16:00.000-08:00

haiz. why does maths always come in my way
i thought i was well prepared
i wanted to be confident
yet i think i was far too complacent
i got that bloody question right
but i thought it was wrong
i din continue to do it
i lost 20 marks. shit!

woke up today with a painful throat.
with running nose. and now
i feel so feverish and weak
even though i already taken 2 panadols
haiz. i must not be defeated
i want to hit my 3
i dun care

no.. i cant slp.
i have to study.

2007-02-22T23:23:00.000-08:00

well. woke up quite late today.
callled yong. met him at parkway.
alden jjoined us. so we poooled.
ate at hawker. walked to east coast
walked into coffee bean
and we mugged there.
kinda went there to reinforce my maths la
learnt quite alot already.

snakced at subway. sandwich.
then all the way home.
reached home... dan called me
went down to mac again
practised 2 way anova. profile plot.
mastered it. =)

2 hr paper tml.
seems short. but i must NOT rush
I MUST NOT key in wrong value into calculator
a promise i set for myself.
at least a 3. hit in gary.

ohh yar. beeen with cousins lately.
we had a small army talk.
somehow. i feel to sign on with air force
seems like a big big decision.
but i think i have to start thinkin of future
cos i wan a good future.

yeap. so much for my thoughts.
i need a run badly.
destress? maybe.
so much things piling up
what if i cant hold on anymore ?

will u jus stay.'
and be with me ?

2007-02-21T22:48:00.000-08:00

well.. been rather busy these few days.
its new year... we get to eat.
we get to visit our relatives
not to forget
i had to visit my boooks.

to think that i actually spent 9 hrs
sitting in mac to mug for the whole day
haha thanks for ya company.
its appreciated. =)

whats holding me back?
damn!

2007-02-19T00:05:00.000-08:00

alright.slpt at 2 plus 3 last night
woke up at ten.
jined family for meal at mac
before sis bf drive us to granddad.
many of my cousins were already there
and they are all playing blackjack.
so i joined it lar. lol
kinda cool huh.
haven been going back to see granddad for a long time

aft that went to my big uncle house
basicallly i was jus sitting down there
so lonely and bored
but nvrtheless
food n snacks saved me.

went home aft that
was suposed to mahjong with frens
but it was cancellled
so i slpt from 5 plus to 8 plus i think
and when i woke i jus ate like a pig.

now. i officialy proclaim
i finished my maths stats topic 2.
time to move to topic 3 now.

damn i jus miss u so terribly know
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2007-02-17T09:22:00.000-08:00

happy cny eve!
gotta go for work soon.
haiz. what a day/
i woke up feelin real shitty

i dun wan history to repeat itelf.
why do i expect so much
when i dun even have the right to

i reallly wished i could hold ur hand
really hope to make u my girl
but. pardon me.
perharps i aint ready
perharps i need to walk out of this gloomy shadow.

and then theres semesttral exam.
i guess i shouldnt talk abt this now
i guess so.
but somehow its jus botherin within me

haiz. i dun know lar...........................
what the hell am i saying................
ah....................

maybe i should just die away.

2007-02-16T23:44:00.000-08:00

jus reached home not long ago.
went to tm seoul garden with the myres
Myre A myre K myre D
it seemed as though it was the last meal.
as classsmates
true enough. we did went rhru thick and thin
one year has past so fast.
all those shit we did.
all those laugthers
i so very dun wanna it to come to an end.
but time flies
however memories will always stay.

CNY coming. no more sch
that means i wun get to see u.
haiz....

i hope u are really alright ok?

2007-02-16T00:14:00.000-08:00

way to go myres!
we did a great job for the water tech prac
i could see the teacher was impressed
i could see we are happy.
at least the hard work's paid off.
cheers everyone.

suddenly i feel so emo. dun know why
one year past so damn fast
we are all gonna head different ways
how am i gonna so so miss the myres thing
how am i gonna miss tenderbest meals
how am i gonna miss our hangouts
how am i gonna miss our late hangin out in sch
how am i gonna miss the times we did csas
how am i gonna miss the time we went shoppin
the times we went poooled
the times we went crazy
the times we share our prob.
its only one year.
but i think it realli bonded us together
omg. i sound like a girl.

but anw myres. lets work hard
im sure we still can meet up!

but right now.
i misss u even more tierribly.
if i ask. will u nod ?

2007-02-15T00:11:00.000-08:00

wahhhh im super worn out now
but i must admit i really had a nice day
went down to ps for the epic movie.
nice nice show. farnie lar huh.

walked around cathay and ps before show started
went to carrefour and smuggled shushi
aft movie. trained to eunos.
bussed to parkway
walked to east coast park.
i had a nice walk. though tiring.

lol. reached the hawker.
but it was quite packed
so we da pao the food. and went to the beach
ate under the stars. facing the sea
only the lightin was pooor
and there are five irritating cats .
lol. otherwise it would be perfect

sent her home aft that.
can see everyone's worn out.

hey. thanks for ur gift kae.
u stayed up so late for it.
i really liked it and apprecitae it =)

you made my valentines shine

2007-02-13T22:21:00.000-08:00

wahhh long long day.
woke up at 7 plus. tor eahc sch at 9
thanks arh alden. to pei me go
and ya you did real well!
lol

alright. water tecch nex. followed by bmic.
then bussed to white sands
kyle n alden bought webcams.
we lunched and bussed back for hpi.
aft that psycho presentation
was quite a breezee..

then met up for water tech proj.
and proj X. sorry ahh guys
couldnt stay and complete it all with u all
and i think i must apologise
cos i think i flared up during the proj.
i dun know why also la
maybe i was really too impatient.
sorry guys. =(

and oh yar. thanks for ur bottle.
now we have the same fone. n same bottle
wahahaha so funny.

kkae. happy valentines to all.
hope tml will be a nice nice day!

2007-02-12T00:12:00.000-08:00

wah im reallly very very tired
gosh. worked for two days.
it seemed as though i'vw wrked for a week
shopppers nvr stop when they shop
and.... i feel so shorthanded

and there are those sickening customers.
but. i shall bear with them
haiz. i shouldnt have worked this weekend
theres far too much things undone.
water tech.. psycho quiz... semestral exam

wahh i hope i dun breakdown la.
actually i really cant cope with everything
at least in the past whenever i m stressed
i go for a run, play my basketball
but now!! i dun even have the time!

what the hell man.
i feeel so darn down lar.
everything that happened seem to be on the bad side
nvrtheless theres one great ting that occured to me
and thats you =)

2007-02-09T23:00:00.000-08:00

ahhhhh did water tech proj
accomplished quite alot though
yea... oh yar. aint got time
have to skip the petri dish idea already

ahhh im super tired
back still straining.
pulled my leg muscle during bball jus now
ahhh tml still have to work
shit!

i dun know why i jus missed u so.

2007-02-08T06:30:00.001-08:00

ahhh whats happening.. ?
all the myres. every single one of us.
we had such a bad day.
first. dan's gf was angry at him.
2nd. alden's pissed by both cds
3rd. louis was facing so much probs
4th. i was feeling so down.
5th. kyle seemed unhapppy

alright. nothing much
crazy day today
we begged mr loh n he gave us petri dishes
i've got seven
to make something for someone

i dun ever want to be easily defeated
so why am i so affected with those words
yet. i dun wana be over confident
to be exact. its been so damn long
since my heart feels so sour.
feels so pain. yet so sweet.
belive me. you are special.
will u belive me.
if i say i love u ?

well. everyone cheer up alright
tml will be a btter day! =)

so what if im not the only one?
what matters is u're the only one.

2007-02-07T06:48:00.001-08:00

dun we look good? =)

dun we look like starship troopers! ? omg ! haha

som random pics =)

2007-02-07T06:17:00.001-08:00

welll.... today was bmic lab test.
pretty alright i guess
but to those who din do welll cheer up
doctor.. dun broood over le la
n you too yea. smile =)

alright. hpi n maths tut
pretty breif. revised quite alot
lessons ended at 4
went to bbuubble tea with joke n doctor
before going home

reached home. changed. grabbed my ball
went down to play. then i realise
the strain in my back wasnt gone
i still cant really stretch la.
omg. pretty lonely la
alll frens busy and i played alone.

reached home... dined. acc yuan to make his valentines gift
dint help much though.
jus sat down n studied water tech n cell b
cant imgaine how busy i'll be
muggging for sem test. gosh

i meant everything i said
cos. you've reached my heart.

2007-02-06T00:42:00.000-08:00

hmmm... lectured most of the day away
and then it was csas. wonder why
why must she extend the time so long.
sorry to make you wait yea.

reached home. touched up on psycho.
did one psycho online quiz
anw i found out i missed an online tut
blame who? blame me. lol.

its psycho presentation tml.
and i tink i'll do v v badly la.
arghhh....

my back's kinda recovering already
but the strain is stlll there.
n theres nth wrong with my palms anymore
im kinda hungry right now
but im kinda very lazy.
kinda tired. yet not slpy.
weird weird me.

panda love pig.

2007-02-05T00:41:00.000-08:00

alright. super bad day
been so long since i experinced such a day
i woke up and realised my bac stilll hurts
aint got anychoice but to report to work

during lunch. totallly no appetite
so i bought a packet teh o
a srping roolll and went backk to store
was eating inside
suddenly the hook i was hangin my drink lost balance
the hot drink, feellll on the newpaper i was reading
and spilled all over the flloooor
no choice i jus moppped the flooor

thought everything was better at dinner
hopin to stay safe i bought canned cooofffe
BUT! i knocked the table over
it spillleed over the flooor again
n i had to mop it once more.
what a day la. super pissed

anyway i guess i really have to apologise to someone
i erally thought i could help in some ways'
but i created a mess.
i've made things go ugly
sorry dude.

ttake my hand.

2007-02-04T00:56:00.000-08:00

ahhh i dun know what damn thing happned to my back
its aching whenever i sit n stand
gosh. irritating

anyway went to safari today.
reached there at 6. but told it opens at 7
so we jus da pao KFc and ate

safari was quite fun though
all the animals and stuffs
and someone so afraid of bats la! lol!
and oh ya we saw 2morrow n mo xiao ling

aft that went to lau pa sat
ate quite alot there.
sent her home. n sent myself home

pretty long day it seeemed
im tired.

yawns

how i wished i knew how u feel.
so u feel the same ?
i hope so.

2007-02-03T16:08:00.000-08:00

alright woke up pretty early.
went to sch for my psycho paper
i think i kinda screwed it up already
but nvm lar... already over.
anyway i get to go out also
muahahahahaz

oh yar. i think my hair's kinda red
im afraid its not very nice man.
loook like some kind of red haired freak
lol. alright gotta run now
night safari trip now. =)

oh yar... updates on myres
alden found his path of light
i think he found his choice finally yea
lol good luck arhhh
for kyle. things areent that good
but then have confidence man
turn the tables around
'i belive u can
for dan. i think everythings the same la
always lovey dovey
always so myrical.
lol. for me. well...

finally.

2007-02-02T22:31:00.000-08:00

wahahahha guess what? im dyein my hair now
lol. alright shoppin for 2 days
i spent almost 200 bucks
one lawman jeans n pol0
one levis top. one flesh imp shirt
wahahahz
now im left with the shoe

alright. sch ended so so early
so we went to eat breakfast
then proceeded to parkway for pool
before meetin with kyle n dan aft their prayers
made our way to baech road
found nothing
trained down to orchard.

walked n eat n shop n bought
n i bought a valentine's gift
haha.

tml psycho test. im muggin like helll now
n i think its night safari date tml
wonder if its still on.
shalll msg n ask later ar...

mug mug mug...

=)
mr. chocs

2007-02-01T00:20:00.000-08:00

alright. sch was boring!!!!!
ended quite swiftly though.
and i realised theres so much undone
and i really need to fasten my pace.

met with derek n royston in a cab
cabbbed down to kallang stadium
heavy jam. large cab fare.
lol. manged to find heru n bryan n alvin
all along with their darlings la.
haha then watched the mtach together

alright thailand are so unsportsman
shouls have disqualified them

aft that left with derek roy nme
we trained down to bedok inter
ate our dinner and went home
lol. super tired now.
tml theres still lab test and also
water tech ahh.

alright i was told im too impatient
was told im too confident.
yeap. i guesss so.
i wanna climb the ladder slow.
and not rush to the top
so if i fall. i wun be that hard
but until that day
will u take my hand ?

i hope. i can manage to finihs everything
im super tired

2007-01-30T23:13:00.000-08:00

wahhh wonder whats wrong with me.
im so tired for the whole day.
but manged to scrape thru the whole day.
tried to do water tech proj but it failed. =(

reached home. dined
mum and dad went out
sis still out
im home alone
simply. i laid on my sis bed
swtiched on her tv.
and jus stayed there watching tv until ten
this is the fers time i spent so long
lying down and watching tv

i relaised im havin eye bags.
gosh thats so so not good
cos someone will be so happpy to call me panda
evil. lol.
anyway i better get going.
hpi tut tml. =( ahhh

pig.!

2007-01-30T01:15:00.000-08:00

wahahah guesss what? its 1 am
im still WIDE awake
anyway jus finished hoggin on the fone la
then i realised it has been ssome time
i think months since i chatted on fone for so long
lol. nono. i think years. gosh
but i think i enjoy it sumhow!
lol

alright. csas. pretty well
except i spoke too fast and stuff ar..
i hope i did look well though.
think our grp did quite well
guys. well done yea! =)
lol.

ahhhhhh i think i better try slpin.
else ar...
tml..... =(
nights everyone.

2007-01-28T23:55:00.000-08:00

ahhhh. worked today.
sis bf sent me off for work
11-3. then i rushed for my prj
meets my grp at pasir ris.
ate n searched for a viod deck

we sat there for like 2 hr plus know
did our slides... rehearse and stuff
by then it was 8 plus.
so we dined and went home

tml's fers formal presentation.
omg. its gonna be so frightening.
i must do well.!
haha!

ahhhh time to slp.
myres! lets do it!

2007-01-26T22:53:00.000-08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
im feeling so shitty know.
okae. my stomach. from ytd till now
super duper ultra uncomfortable okae?

ohhh this few days dun know why la
suddenly look like meng zhe
suddenly elvin ng.
and QIAN WAN CHEW
jus face the fact ok!
haha!

kk i jus drank a bottle of vodka
i think im abit drunk
i feel so dizzy
ahhhh if i knew i wun drink

csas proj aft sch today
all the way till 6 plus.
before rushing home to meet mum dad n sis
since a long time we dined together!
lol. looking forward to renuion dinner! =)

tml working.
sun halfday. for csas
mon is presentation!
i spent a large sum on the business wear
n gosh i look damn weird la
abit of handsome la.
lol!

kk lar. i think i need slp or sumthing
yawnnnn

tell me. do you feel it too?
will u nod? or shake me away
i dun know.
sumtimes im jus a coward
=( buakatakaht.

aku sayang kau

2007-01-24T23:33:00.000-08:00

well well... looks like blogging fever huh?
alden had his new blog.
we. our clique had our own blog.
wahahahah so fun la can!

anyway this week is super duper busy
and im ultra tired already
so many things hangin halfway for me to do
csas... haven got my clothes n shoes.
csas slides not done. scripts not done
water tech mini n major proj
bmic online shit
psycho common test
ahhhh im already turining nuts liao
gosh! =(

okok work aside.
visited imh ytd
was a eye opening experience
its really a nice enviroment
not those gloomy place at all.
felt that there was so much i can do to help
yet i cant offer any help in any way
ahh contradict again

hmm anyway i think im falling deeper for u
i dun know if u sensed it
it came abit of a sudden too
i really wished u knew.

i fell for u -.- yes you.

2007-01-21T09:53:00.000-08:00

hmm well worked for the whole of yesterday.
nothing much happened though
jus that im worried for mon's bmic test
n guesed what ?
i have to work today again =(

joanna n valerie came n look for me
and hey thanks for the chocs ok ?
lol.z

sudddenly felt so weird la
im jus like a knight.
who lost his armour
who lost his courage
had his aim
but yet doesnt know to how achieive it
afraid of failure
yet dared to dream.
ahhh...

nvm off to work =(

2007-01-17T23:49:00.000-08:00

omg. i din post for so lng.
i think people might have thought i disappeared huh
well.. many projs on hand.
n all quizz n tests are coming
hmm gonna be quite alot things to do.

have been rather tired these few days
i wonder why too. i did slp.
haha yea. tml's tp open house
and i will be a sch guide
lookin forwardto it yea.
but i think i might screw things up.

but nvm hope i can enjoy
and of cos i think tml i can finally exercise
basketball! wahahha!

alright i think i better turn in soon
its gettin late too.
tml's an early day.
everyone -=) n nights

my heart raced
bringing along sunshine smiles. =)

2007-01-08T22:27:00.000-08:00

dun show me that smug face of yours
dun show me ur irritating attitude.
dun rain sarcasm on me
im warning u .
im puttin up with it real hard
i dun wanna have any conflicts
but pls watch ur words.

somehow im kinda disturbed by the definition of frens
what should real frens be like?
i admit i have a very bad temper.
n pls stop showerin me with ur sarcasm'
i jus cant get it.
must frens behave this way?
why do u think u are always right?
why cant u listen to others?
why?
ah. nvm.

well. finally got back one result that im happy with
look. i dun even bother abt who's higher and stuff
i jus wan to meet my own expectation
i see no big deal in comparing
i see no need to laugh at others
so why should u ?
u think u are great?
i'll go along with ur idea

aft sch went to gulab.
met loong sheng n xue qi there
gave alvin his bday cum xmas present
worth 150$. theres a discount la.
went home aft that.

im super duper tired today
i think im gonna slp soon

you've caught my eyes
you've got my attention
you've stole my heart
pls dun jus leave me hanging here.
or shold i jus walk away.

2007-01-07T00:23:00.000-08:00

work. work and work. wah.
im really dying soon. lol.
somehow theres a phobia for sch nex week
cos i'll be gtting back the rest of the papers
but its too late for regrets also.

well. ehhh.... dun know what to write.
haiz i stop here la.
kinda loss for words
my brain dead now.
chill out.

2007-01-04T01:40:00.000-08:00

alright. went sch for proj today
could say we did quite alot.
manage to complete the whole thing

went to pool aft that
before back to sch for water tech
aft that dined with yong. teppanyaki
went to g2000 got my formal pants

went to rsh gathering.
kinda veery happy
ervyone meet up... chatted joked..
it was kinda real fun man.
i miss my managers. lol.

thats abt it.
well for a new year.
i'ld like a new start
there are things we want badly
but sadly, we may not get them
i've learnt, i've grown
no more pessimist
maybe i've alrdy got my direction
finally im not lost anymore
but if it happens that i wun reach my destination
i'ld rather be glad. i've made a move
someting so simple.
yet so far away.
it could be jus in front of me
for only a single momment

i know my mind tends to be far fetched.
however i'll just let things be
whats yours would be yours.

jus like a chess piece
every step could be dangerous
could be deadly,
could be decisive.

alright. thinkin far too much again.
here i come my pillow.

i've told a lie.
cos i know. i cant be optimistic

2007-01-02T00:00:00.000-08:00

wahhh happy new year.
belated x mas everyone.
i guessed i din blog for some time
or was it really quite long.
din really did that in the past.

new year. new resolutions. new plans.
well. i spent my fers day of the year workin.
anyway i spent the last day of 06 with my bros
alvin derek n wei. and i spent the very fers moemment of 07 with them
had the fers meal with them LOL
cabbed home..

now its time to get seriouos
i wanna achive in my academics
i wanna build up my body
i wana be happy.
i wanna everyone around me to be happy.
i wanna my family to be happy.

thats simple eh ?
i want my bank account to be hapy too
so..no more restaurants life.
no more clothes
no more high tea.

must a least save 100 per month now.
i wana a laptop. but big nono.

ok ar. i tired already.
thts all folks.
smile =)

2006-12-18T01:18:00.000-08:00

lol. so long and i dint blog.
well term test finally over.
thanks to those who sacrifice thieir slp
to acc me study ar..
actually only one person.

work work work.
i sddenly feel that i m such a workaholic
alright. work was damn busy
cant stand i already.

alright tml sec 4b's gatherin
i miss u guys so much!!!
wahahahah!!!!

n ex-manager gave me a x mas gift
gonna give him something too, =)

somehow, ur msg birghtens my day
simple. yet amazing.

2006-12-13T00:24:00.000-08:00

alright. i totally worn out from studying
it only term test, why am i so tensed?
argh.

pei ling crashed tp today la.
then yong n me acc her walked around
go tm. nepprinted n stuffs

bus ride home.
one word. lonely.
however, i was fascintaed by mere nature
and i jus have a sudden urge
to sit down by a quiet lake.
watching the sun set
watchin the kids play.
watc hin the birds fly.
something so simple, yet sophisticated.

and someone. oh pls.
i need help.
how do i read one's mind?
im hesistating
or have i walked out of my world.

revision: 5 phases in cell division'
propahse: coiling n supercoiling of chromatids, more compact
prometaphase: neleusos disppears, envelope diappear, chormosomes visible, spindle formed
metaphase: chromosomes allgned, assist separating
anaphase: centromeres break ,separate into single chromosomes
telophase: pinchin off.

alrights.

i say a thank you
befre i go.
i wish u all the best

2006-12-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

guys. u all can call my crazy
i haven even finish muggin for the first test
n im workin on both weekends.
what the hell.

anyway. im gonna work triply hard.
and im gonna get the best results.
lol. seems so far away.
perharps nex sem arhh.

spiidey. dun wrry la
phins wun run away
aft term test ar.
lol.

alrigh gotta go sch now

i dun know why
verytime u appeared in my eyes
there's this strange force
pulling me closer to you
i know i had to stand still, stay in my tracks
cos i know moving forward
ends with nothing

=) i guess its time i finally get the whole pic