Saturday, October 27, 2007
alrights. so many things happened
i reallly dun know where to start.
jsut back from bangkok.
has only been a few days,
and something shocking happened
my grandfather passed away
i really regretted.
i din even get to see him for the last time.
at the last day of the funeral, everyone cried
i did too.
it was such a heartbreaking scene
seeing my granny so heartbroken
i thought all these will bring the family closer
however. all the uncles n aunties
not all. but some really pissed me off.
dun show that F'ed face in front of me.
who are you? just ask urself first.
and for those who JUS CANt think
i pity u guys.
seriuosly, i lost respect for so many pple.
suddenly i feel that all along everyone's just putting an act
i sort of seen thru everyone's move
they dun place kinship on top of everything
ok well.. enough of that.
when everything was over.
my com died on me
the graphics card went haywire
i had to get a new one.
what abt sch? i guess its just the first wekk
i still can handle everything.
well many things happened lately.
conflicts? misunderstandings?
shant talk about them.
i know i shant feel this way.
i know
but, its really makes me feel abit insecure
makes me feel that im useless
i have nothing
im not capable of anything
it just make me compare myself to him
makes me feel so far away
makes me feel so small, so insignificant
i totallly lost all confidence
even for my passion
nvm.
sometimes i really hate bloggin
it makes me feel so depressed.
who will ever know ?
i`ve made a wish ;
10:52 PM
